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My presents...

2009-01-08T17:07:00.000-08:00

It has been really long time since i last blog. Usually i would feel like blogging when i am upset and angry. But this time, i would really say that i feel lucky and happily leading my life with him now. Although we are not attached to each other yet, but maybe this is not an important issue? He hasn't confessed to be properly yet, i mind... sometimes i really tried to prompt and hint him, but maybe he thought it was just the right time and right location...
Anyway, his family know that i am his gf... and i regard him as my bf as well infront of everyone. Just that the fact is that we DO NOT HAVE ANY ANIVERSARY yet :(
The above piglet was a gift from him... i think was for christmas... haha... It is rather big... haha... my another 'son' :)
We had our 1st trip together to KL on 25th Dec 2008. On the way, we went to Melacca for the Round Round chicken Rice and spent half a day at melacc. Then We spent 3 days at KL and had lots of fun and shopping there. He is very nice... He didn't really shop but merely follow me and carry whatever i've bought :) He paid for whatever i wanted to eat and drink and even accomodation and transportation. On the 2nd day, We went to Sunway Pyramid and met with his elder sis, her bf and Munchy- my high school classmate. Patrick and Yi hao, the driver who fetch us to KL were there as well. We went for ice skating and Korean Cuisine. Omg!!! tat was very fun!! I merely fell down once and i got to know 3 young little girls as my Shi Fu :) Eventually, i can do ice skating lo~~~~

Last nite, he suddenly walk up to me with this box while i was studying for my Clinical Chem UT. I didn't know what it is and i didn't know it's for me until he open it up and....

Wow!! It's a white gold necklace... It is actually 2 pendant... The outer Love shape and the diamond love shape can be separated. There is a name for this necklace... "THE 7 WONDERS..." U know Why it is named this way??? Cos the seperated pendant can be hung on the chain in 7 different ways. The diamond love shape has two faces, plus the fact that 2 loves can be rearranged, thus i can change it in whatever way i like... For a person who likes surprise and get bored for something after a while, this is really a good present :) Thnx HWS...

I asked him why give me a necklace out of the blue, he said " I don't have to give u present only when it's some kind of celebration rite? And i will give u present whenever i like..."

My flowers....

2008-11-20T21:51:00.000-08:00

Oh deAR.... This is the rose given by Garnett yesterday. I was waiting 4 him aT Toa Payoh afteR my Treatment. Waited for quite long... tot would not meet ald, yet he took a caB down from West Coast Plaza to meet me. Saw him holding papeR bag in his hand (which he doesn't usually carry anything), i was puzzled what could it be? He passed it to me, and said sorry for letting me wait for him for so long.... This roses were inside. haha... So sweet..... Was very happy la :) Although we are noT togethEr yet, he givE me floWers without any reason, or maybe just because he was late. Anyway.. i am still happy :)

Long time didnt blog ald. Cause i was busy in finding new place to stay. Arh... it's just troublesome... Even agent can't give me the room thAt i want... Tat's very sad... until now, i have less than 1 week left to get a new room for myself. So irritating... I worry about where to stay more than my FYP presentation which fall on the coming wednesday. Oh no... It's just baD days all these while.... Why can't things get better asap??? I am suffering now.... Just give me a nice room pls................................

Nah!!! The news of me getting a new bf had been spreading ever since the day my parents came in and helped me send my stuffs back. haha... Kena caught holding hand secretely behind by Brad, my one and only brother, and news started spreading.... haha.. pai seh sia~~

Garnett Ho...

2008-11-03T21:56:00.000-08:00

After a few weeks of getting along... finally cannot tahan him ald....
I would admit that he is a sweet guy, and he loves me...
However... maybe cos i dun really love him yet, thus sometimes cant really tahan what he does...
Hm... Last nite, we were talking in the phone and suddenly, he just tok something else, cos he was talking to his roommate. And i was holding the phone, waiting for him to finish his conversation with Patrick, his roommate. Same situation happened twice throughout the conversation, and i told him "why don't u talk to ur roommate 1st, finish ald then call me?" and he said ok.
So i waited for his phone call and lying on the bed. 1o mins ltr, he called me. WE continued talking, and i was telling him that i dun like guys hang up phone call before i do. And i was kiddingly telling him that "come, we compete who hang up the phone faster", and i said 3-2-1, he hung it up immediately. SHIT..... I was really pissed.... Go and die... really... All these while, he had been saying bye bye to me when i was talking to him in the phone. He didnt end our conversation nicely nvm, still hang up my call?? I was holding the phone, got hung, ok, sleep then. He sms me ltr on, said that he hung up 1st, haha, gd nite and love me.
Walao..... Why so stupid one.... So i sms him, tell him tat i not gonig to meet him today ald.
So he sms asked me why, i didnt reply, he called me and i rejected his phone call.
eventually, i told him off in the phone when he called me again.
He said sorry and promise me same thing wont happen again....
Hm.... could tell that he was shock... But no choice, who ask him make me angry??

Dilemma..

2008-10-22T22:51:00.000-07:00

Recently, i've been meeting up with one of my Foon Yew's senior. His name is Garnett. Usually i call him Xiong gor gor, cos his sister was my sec classmate. Anyway, how i got to knoe him wasn't through his sis, but my friends... haha... small world :) He is 4 years older than me (that means he is now 23 yr old). Hm... Looking wise... Quite alrite... Twice his "Class Grass" during high school time. He was studying in MMU, cyber jaya. Last month, he came to work in singapore. His company doing some business with RP, that's y he tried to find me recently.
Anyway... I went out with him on Sunday. We met up at Ochard (3 of us, another guy is his roommate) and went for dinner together as Wisma, of course, he paid for my meal. Then we went to Cineleisure's K BOX and sing K. haha.. Interesting... he can sing!! That's what i dun noe.. although can't really sing well :(
Tuesday, we met up again. That nitem my FYP screwed up and i went home at 5.30pm. So boring rite?? So asked him whether want to have dinner. He replied immediately and agreed to come Woodlands and have dinner with me :) And so, he took bus and train all the way here although he staying at Aljunied. After finished the dinner, he send me home and we had a chit chat at void deck... And he missed his train... Oh no... my fault...
Yesterday, he came to my school to work, according to him, troubleshooting something. We didn't really have enough time to chit chat. He treat me bubble tea and went for work. I went back a while then rushed out to meet up with Joey. Actually we were suppose to watch movie, cos he promised me to bring me for movie. However, joey was tired because of the guard duty plus the fact that there weren't nice show to watch so we didn't watch. After 1.5hour, Garnett finished his work and enquired me about the school taxi stand. He invited me for a movie... Hm... Should i go??? Yala... i went la. So he came Junction 8 and find me. And so Joey went home, i went AMK with him for a movie. haha... His roommate rushed to AMK for the movie too, but due to technical error, he wasnt able to sit with us :( We watched CONNECTED. Actully i watched that show before, but was in English version. Very nice.. Chinese version contains bit of Exagerating and humour.. but was nice too!!! Obviously, Garnett got bit feeling towards me... But he didnt express it directly...I've tok to him, he said he wants to find one to be with him forever... can tell tAt he still unsure abT his feeling... nvm...maybe he jusT lonely??

2008-10-22T22:49:00.000-07:00

This is NUSS's new uniform.. Not mine... but Kepo.... want to try :) Nice?

This is the full body PicturE that i've sent to JAL... Hm... Taken by Garnett :)

Will I be BEtter??

2008-10-11T10:44:00.000-07:00

It has been one week that he did not want to pick up the phone nor seE me.
I have been crying for so long... Sometimes can cope ip, sumtimes cannot... I also dunno why, juZ miss him. Deep in my heArt i noE tat it's Better for Us to separaTe cos we canT communicaTe. What he wantS id whaT i dun wanT and whaT i want is noT what he Is looking for...
Juz Like whaT ronny said, i gaVe ouT all my cards ald... Game over, nth to plaY. It's truE...in my heaRt i really reaLLY miss him and want to see him. But i did not contaCt him for many daYs ever sincE i IM him in msn and told him my feeling. Sometimes, i juz suddenly woke up & feel like calling him and greet him a good morning, but i Noe if i were to do this, he would be unhapPy cos i spoil his whole daY, and i would not be happy cos he unhaPPy... So i didnt do So.
After so lonG, finally he willinG to removE the "there is no turning back" from his msn. It doesn't Mean thaT he is no longer angry anymore. He gaVe up, i suppose... juz lyk wHat my frens sAid, if he love me, he would not do all thosE things to me, he would not treaT me like tat.
Ya... so whaT if he were to let me contaCt him, what can i do?? His parents will not accept me anymore, he will not accept me anymore, then why should i hurt myself? Since he can let go, i should let go as well!! There is no poinT for me holdIng it tightLY. Juz Vain....
What people say is true... as long as i am single, there are guys coming to me. My life is noT tat bad thougH... I received a call from Tiger Airways, they shortlisted me and ask me to go for interview on MondaY... Timing juz Nice, i got no school... I m going to give my Best Shoot and i will success!! At the mean time, i dun noe when this spanish miX Burmese guy who is tAking Avionic Engineering CoursE in my sch startEd to add me in FACEBOOK and now toking to me in msn all time. He asked for my numbER and daTe me out for dinner. Of courSe, i didnt go.
Today, i meet with one of my Angmo net friend who come from South Africa. He's a cool guy... a softwaRe engineeR who is Brave to be here alone and we tok about lots of things... interesting stuffs... education, careER, vodafone (we were complaining at M1 lousy broadband), travelling and eTc... Sumthing that amazEd me was, there was this gal who tRy to sell perfume to us. Both of us were listening to hER introduction and etc, and suddenly, this guy named DEAN, said "Wo Bu Yao, Xie Xie Ni" OMG!!! He can speak chinese... So cool rite?? he's been learNing chinese for 4 months... That's really amazing...
I try to occupy my time with lots of other stuff. Maybe like What others said, After so long of trying, it's proven that me and joey juz don't work. I cant deny it... now i accept it. What i am looking forward now is to meet with more people, enlighten my life and hope i can fulfill my dream and fly around the world soon...

Recent Photos..

2008-10-09T22:27:00.000-07:00

My fault...

2008-10-07T23:30:00.000-07:00

Whenever i see other people hugged by their bf, or they waiting for each other to go home, I really very envy them....
I wonder how my friends can be together with thier beloved for so long, why Not me??
I was very sad, I am very, but i hope i won't be sad anymore....
Last night, i managed to IM joey and tok to him a bit.
His attitude was harsh, obviously, he angry with me and hate me a lot.
I didnt want to quarrel, but to clear my doubts.
He blamed me for making scene in the public, he blame me for make him lose face in front of the public, he blame me for being "agitated" over the topic that we discussed, he hate me for the bruises and scratches that he has on his arm, he said i pushed him to his limit and so he pushed me down.
I swear!!! I HATE MAKING SCENE IN THE PUBLIC... and i know u hate it! that's why i wanted to tok to him somewhere else... but i dun know why he refused to and just leave me alone.
Finally, i noe why... it was because the topic and the conversation that we had earlier on.
I have nothing to say. I didnt want to argue about that topic too... i made myself clear that i dun want that issue to affect our relationship... End up he willing to leave me aside becos of tat... leave me without giving explanation.... Ok.... I got nth to say...
I have been crying ever since that incident happened. Dunno why, i just cried for a while after i explain things to him through MSN (although he didnt reply).
Maybe my friends were right. If he loves me, he would not leave me alone and buy his lunch. HE DOESN'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE, CINDY!!! ya.... why must i keep crying over this??? Algae is rite... my parents love me even more! If something happen to me, who will cry for me??? Joey??? NO!!! It's my parent, my beloved brother, my family, my friends... It is because they love me... Why must i hurting myself??? I was crying badly when algae and miki told me so... Just that moment, my dad called me... OH no.... I dun want to let him hear it. So i wiped away my tears and picked up the phone. He asked me why my voice changes? I said i have flu... "It must be a bad flu which changed your voice become like that!!" NO no no.... normal flu... Then i noe wht algae means....
SAying so... my appetide cut down a lot.. Merely one/half a meal per day... It's juz hard... can't eat... even i can't eat i aslo have diarrhea... i dun dare to tell all these things to my parents... they try so hard to send me here to study, and i torture myself into this state... I have no face to see them....

Who like to make a scene in the public?
Who like to make her beloved cry?
Who like to see her beloved sad?
Who like to walk away from her beloved?
Who like to leave her beloved one side and buy her own lunch?
Who like to shout at her beloved?
Who like to lay her fingers on the beloved?
Who like to see her beloved injured?
Who like to torture herself?
Who like to beg for forgiveness?
Who like to cry all the time?
Who want to give up her beloved?

No ONe.... I wish i could be the lovely girlfriend who always smile and hold her boyfriend's arm dun want to let go. I wish i could be the sweet girlfriend who talks nicely no matter in what situation and never raise her voice. I wish i could be the smart girlfriend who can sweetalk to her boyfriend and bring him happiness. I wish i could be the calm and cool girlfriend who can give her bf a kiss even he was piss and going to leave her alone. I wish i could be the best gf in the world who deeply loved by her bf...
What i can do now is wait... since joey thinks is my fault, juz like what he said "there is no turning back". I wish i could tolerate 2 more weeks and tok to him nicely. I hope his mind set would changed by then....

I love my piglets....

Guilty...

2008-10-05T21:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was supposed to be a very happy day. 12pm, i called joey and we had a deal to go AMK for lunch and have a walk there. And so, i went shower happily and waited for him to fetch me at my plaCe. I Had many many Things to tell him and he also had something to tell me. He actually forgave me and he wanted to give me a chance to patch togeTher. Both of us were Happy though... but dun noe why, afTer started to topic which had troubling him for a couple of days with me, he wasn't happy with my explanation and my point of view. Finally, we reached AMK and found a lot there. I know he dun like us to quarrel in the public, so i wanted to settle it and draw a conclusion for that topic. Yet he was unhappy and he got off the car. I had no choice, so i got off the car too!
I crossed the road, and waited for him. Who knows, after he cross the road, the walk to the other side and purposely avoid me. He continued walking and left me alone at the carpark. I was crying.... an old man came to me. He said, "Gal, why are you crying here?? Dun cry, Come, go to my car and cry if you want, Come, come with me..."
OMg... I was so scare, yet joey was no longer in my sight. I went to the market and sit in front of the Mee stall which he likes the most, but he never come. So i called him. He Sounds piss, he ask me to do whatever i want to do and dun pester him anymore... and he was in the market too!! So i went around and i found him queueing in front of another mee stall and buying food. I was really piss... so i ran to him, and hit him on his arm and ask him to go with me so we can have a talk some other place. He refused to... he asked me not to make a scene in the public. And i said yes, i dun want to make a scene in the public so please come with me! How can he just throw me at the carpark yet he himself come and buy lunch??? What was he thinking?? We didnt quarrel!!
He went off very fast after he got his food. So i followed him and keep pulling his arm. He kept pushing me away, ask me not to follow him. finally we came to edge of the market which was quiet and i slapped him twice. I was really angry... I angry because i dun know why he just throw me alone at the car park and he buy lunch himself. I angry why he dun want to tok to me and juz say whatever thing i do is ald useless... Why???? Why i drag him to the other side juz for a tok also wrong?? Why???? He said before, i can shout and throw my temper, but not in the public. I also know he hates it a lot so i pull him to the other side, but he didnt even give me a chance to tok to him.... Why?????
Of course he was very angry, i kept pulling him but he juz go like that. I chased behind him, and when we reached the carpark, i finally got his arm, but he pushed me very hard that i fall on the road. I knocked my head very hard and my arm. For that moment i was ald lying in the middle of the road of the carpark, i thought i was going to faint, but i didn't. I thought he would turn bck and look at me but no..... he never,,,, He just drove off....
Everyone in the carpark stunned.... he threw me alone at the carpark, didnt even held me up when i fall on my head... My heart was very pain.... No one could help me.... THe public helped me to rest at the side. People standing around me, i could do nth except for crying... i tried to call his house and his mother's hp, but all engaged.
i still borrowed a passerby's phone, couldnt reach...... So i called eugene, but he said he was bz, not convenient.... So i ask one othe public to send me o his place. Lucky, one of the women offer to send me.... Thnx to the lady.... I fianlly reached his place. He wasn't at home. I told the whole story to his mum, and she help me to put ice pack to the swelling can go off a bit. I know it was my fault, the moment i slapped him i know he will hate me forever... But i jus dun get it why he get so piss even when i compromise with him???
He refused to go home... i have no choice but go home. His sister acc me for few hours... we had a talk... i felt much better, but in my hear i feel guilty and regret... But there is nothnig i can do. He say we are gone... impossible anymore... he dun want to see me, dun want to tok 2 me...
I thought i would be alrite.... But i feel giddy when i sleep. I was flippng on my bed for the whole nite because i was reallyvery giddy... i dun know whether it caused by my injury on my head... very xin ku....
This morning i woke up, i thought nth will happen. But i started crying again.... I feel very very bad... So i slapped my face 10 times. It was painful.. but it was not as pain as what joey got yesterday.
I never contact him anymore... i know he wun want to see me or listen to me. I can do nth except for crying and waintg.... I dun want us to end.... I very scare that he would tell me not e even be his friend and stop looking for him... I really very scare....
I still got lots of thing and story havent tell him. I havent finished what i wanted to tell him ytd....
Joey, if u can see this, i want to say sorry to you. Please dun hate me....
The story that i wanted to tell u but no chance was that, May gave birth to her baby boy ald... 2 3 days ago.... May God bless the child....

My Piglet in flower...

2008-09-07T22:47:00.000-07:00

Can see??? This is the present that Joey was preparing for asking me back.... This is just like a dream... Like what i said alweez, 'Who ever can give me a bouquet of Ferrero RocheR Chocolate flowers with PurplE colouR Wrapper and a PigleT on top i will marry him' And someone really give me such thing... custom madE flower...

Omg.... I tot we could never be togetHer because we haD argumenT beforE this flowER was readY. JoeY was Stress oveR some issue and I wasn't being understanding enuf... Sorry....

Thnx bb....

Love u... :)

My Brother- Brad

2008-09-07T22:41:00.000-07:00

The boy in red shirt no doubt, is my brother, Brad. The white colour cow is the souvenir that i;ve bought for him when i went to Penang with Joey. Can tell how much he loves this cow?? Cos this cow is "injured" everywhere and super dupple DIRTY!!... in less than 2 weeks' time. Haha...
Anyway, tell u guys one secret. This cow is extremely dirty on its left cheek, u noe why?? Cos Brad likes to smell its left cheek a lot... haha....

2nd day of being Single...

2008-08-07T06:22:00.000-07:00

Heard from a fren thaT today is chinese valentine day. And today is the day that i am single.... again...

Feel so lonely... dun even have mood to go out... or even go sch...

I slept for almosT the whole day.... did nTh at all... Sleep until i have headache...

I realized that i can't cry anymore... not that i dun want, is thaT i have no more tearS in my eyes.... not even a single drop. So i continued to sleep afTer i had my breakfasT... So pathetic... hahaha....

Juz out of sudden, i remembEr that he promiseD to brinG me to Singapore Flyer on our 1sT year anniversary. End up we didn't go cos of thE timing and date... And i wanted to cry again, becos we cant even Get a chaNce to go and we broKe up... Just Like we don'T think holdinG hand is stH when We weRe in good tErm. And when we broke up, then miss the feeling of someOne u lovE hold ur hand... Wht's the point??

Just now, i recieved a msg from him, saying thaT he promised to bring me go Sg Flyer, since now dun hv the chancE, he wants to give me a ticket so that i can pay lesser... I dun want... What's the point of going there alone?? U think i really like the scenery to the extend i will go alone just like how much i like shopping & movies??

We had a chaT in the phonE after tAt... He said that he regreted... and he wantS to take back whTever he said to me last nite, includE the harsH decision that he made. U think i will agree?? No.. not this time anymorE... i had enougH... this is not the 1sT time saying break Up. This is not a jokE... wht if it is harsh??? he made the decision himself whT?? And so i told him, if u really love me, come aftER me. I cant let him take back wht he said last nitE. and he told me not to forgeT all the thingS that we did before and all thge presents thgat he gave me. It means he give up, right?? Again!!! WhatEver...

Then he said he will Try his besT to get me back. But at this point of time, i am ald Single. Everyone standS a chancE to be my bf... So i didn't promisE him anytHing... Let's juz wait and see.... Who can win my heaRt this time...

The last day of being attached...

2008-08-06T07:58:00.000-07:00

Today is my last day of being attached. From this moment onwards, i am back to single... like what i used to be.

Last nite, i went for a drink wiTh Yusheng, Algae, Didi and Arif. Surprisingly, didi revealed his UndergrounD relationship in front of us... with Jocelyn, one of my year 1 sem 1 clsmates. All of us felt happy for him. However at the samE time, i faced a very big problem in my relationship. We had lot of chit chat... One of the questioN that was passing arnd, 'Which BF do u love the most?' and my answer was 'The current one' despite we had lot of argument. This was what happened last nite....

Tonight, i workeD in library. Before that, i had meeting in the morning and i had severe cramp, that kind to the extend whereby i couldn't walk. I tried to sleep for few hours, but i could still feel the cramping while i was having dreaMz... That was really pain!! my teaRs bursT out... and i wanted to call joey. After a thought, i decided not to disturb him while he was working. Thus i waited for his msg. I typed a msg replied him that i had severe cramp, unknowingly that the msg was not delivered. So i called him after the msg of him telling me that he was about to go home. Then i knew that he was ald on his way home, without paying me a visit. Maybe it's true that i expected to high from him. But after that i realized tat he was showered with fuel, i didn't mind he not coming visit me anymore. And i admit that i was still in bad mood...
Of course, after tat i called him. He tok to me in a very sweet way, but i just dun hv the mood, dun know why... we had a tok in the phone then, not only tok, lots of arguments aroused. Abt the hand bag incident as well, everything that happened to us. He told me 'Go and find a new BF who can carry your bag for u!!!' that day.... sunday. I was so sad.... because i really took it seriously. How can my bf ask me to find a new bf juz because he dun want to carry my heavy bag for me and he claimed that his dad told him not to do so??? Why every time we quarreled muz be my fault?? Why he say sorry then i have to forgive him?? whY??????

Eventually, i brought up my courage and told him that i dun love him as much as what i did before. I have been trying to let go, and i did it, i dun love him so much and i wont feel hurt so much. He was sad... of course, Then me?? I dun feel sad when u ask me to find a new bf??? I would really do so!! He thought about it for a while, and he give up. HE GIVE UP!!!!!! becos i dun love him as much and he afraid i would leave him for someone else. and HE GIVE UP!!! becos he dun want to get hurt in future. and this is what he said,

'Dun get the wrong idea that i do not love u. I do in fact love u. But the thing about you saying that u dun love me as much as last time has really hurt me a lot. And i mean alot alot. I can tell how much You've suffered in order for you to say you love me lesser. It's not your fault for saying. It's me putting you through all these. I m breaking down right now and tats why i m not talking. I cannot express myself in this state. I m sorry. But i love you thats why i am letting you go. To put it more selfishly, i m afraid of getting hurt myself. I dunno how to accept it if you were to leave me for another guy. I m really sorry. Sorry.'

This whole thing was written in sms. And now i noe... Actually i knew it long time ago that HE LOVES HIMSELF MORE THAN HE LOVES ME.
I have nothing to say.... he would rather give me up than putting in effort to make me love him as what i did before. I feel EVEN SAD THAN HIM!!!!!! bcos all these while i love him MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF... and tat's what i get in the end.... OMG....

And i am back to single now.... OMG...... After 382 days submerging in relationship... I m so afraid to commit now.... it's my turn to say so...omg...

Juz Some Random PhotOs...

2008-07-29T00:44:00.000-07:00

Honey & Bee 1 yeaR anniversary!!!

2008-07-22T07:58:00.000-07:00

Well well well... ouR anniversaRY dinneR wasn't thaT luxurY... But it is not Tat cheap also...

It's my favourtiE thaI expreSS seafood Thai laksA witH Green Gravy!!

Yumm yumm...

It is a gifT with a baby bluE box... From Citigems.

Hm.... I wonDer whaT is it inside???

It's a purple color WhitE golD Pendant!!!

Such an expensivE jewelry!!!

1st time in my life....

& It's from my BF--Joey

Take a closer look... Yup....it's purple!!!!

Whew!!!

It has been one yeaR ever sincE we attached to each other. And he is the one guy who can 'tolerate' me so far... We actually took quite a whilE in thinking and getting along witH each othER before We finally anounced that we are couple. We had greaT and sweet timE though...
Through out this 1 year, things started to change. Sweet days no longer exist anymore, and i noe tat it's normal. Everytime we quarreled, i alwez tell myself taT compromisE witH each other, everything Will be fine. But thingS weren'T alweZ happen as whaT i expected...
And since then, we suffered instead of enjoying... Both of us had tough timE and we took quitE a whilE to over comE and digest what each othEr meant and thought. We tried so haRd to put ourselves in each Others' shoes in ordEr to maintain this relationship. Honestly, there were times which we reallY felt like givinG up. However, our love pull us through all the hardship.
Few months ago, we started to havE 'regular' argument and quarrel. Everytime we quarreled, I made my frenz aound me as well as my mum worry for me. Ppl say such relationship wont Last long if thingS continue to be like taT... But i believe taT joey will understand my poinT of vieW one daY & thus i didnt give up. Our relationship has gone through diff kind of hardship and obstacles. Both of us were traineD to standup and fight against it and finally... we made it.
Today is our 1 year anniversary. This is also my 1st time celebrate 1 year anniversary witH the one tat i lovE. Sorry for jusT giving u a small and cheaP present in such occasion. However, i think thE presenT is one of the thing that u lack of and i feel thaT it would be very useful especially to someone who lovEs MILO so much :)
Bee ar... jus want to tell u taT i really really lovE you. THnk you for the present, thnCs for the dinneR and thNX for beinG arounD me throughout the whole yeaR.
I hope thAt this Is actually a good begining of us and i would likE to see more anniversary celebration of us.

Love,
Cindy aka Honey

Our 1st Year Anniversary

2008-07-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

Its been quite some time since either me or Cindy last blogged. We've been busy with stuff lately. I've been busy with work while Cindy's been busy with school. Its her final year and soon she'll out into the working society too. But just to highlight certain meaningful events lately.... 1. Our dear Cindy girl here have just achieved second place in the I-Star Competition on Monday 21st of July. She has been practicing a lot for the competition and she's made a lot of effort to get to the second place. I was there to witness her rising shine of a singing star. I'm proud of her. She's been really hardworking and putting in lots of effort to it. Well baby, you deserve it. =) 2. Its our 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY! Hahaha. It is my first time in a relationship which has sustained a one year period. Not easy. But we did it. Haha. I never thought myself of being in a long relationship. But what do you know, I am where I am with Cindy now. Everything has got its ups and downs. We've been through tons of it. And yes, it wasn't easy at all. It all happened to quickly. And the last thing I knew it, its already been a year. Actually we got "together" earlier than that. But dumb dumb piglet wanted the date to be on the 22nd. She likes the number '2' ar. Don't know why also. Haha. But anyway, back to how we celebrated. Yup. As you can see, we didn't really have any fanciful or exquisite dinner. But we had thai food instead. But the important thing is that I truly feel blissed. I really think that went through a lot within this one year. And all the things that I've learn is a meaning one. We have learn many things from each other, and there are to be many more things to learn from one another in the years to come. I really hope that we could journey further more years down our lives together. And that I want to say the most important thing is that "I Love You". =) Love, Your Jo Jo Bee

I Star 2008

2008-07-22T07:09:00.000-07:00

FinALLY.... I star 2008 was oveR. I havE been sufferinG for 4 weeks... ever sincE the Audition--> Heat --> Semi final --> Final. It was a lonG journeY... Luckily my FYP presentatioN ended before my Heat started. I put in quite a loT of efforT to choose songs throughouT the whole competition. I wanted to givE up when i kneW tat i was the 5th among the top 5 after the semi final. I didnt want to take part in the final sincE i kneW tat my chance of winninG was small.... I was afraid to lose and i felt very tireD after stuggling for 3 weeks. However, wheneveR i thoughT of how my friends voted for me, cheer for me, encourage me and help me in this competition, i felt very touch and bad if i were to give up just like that. If i didnt want to win, why i ask for voting in the 1st place??

Finally... i went for the final at TRCC. Actually i wasn't that nervous, until the dry run part whereby i realized that changing key of my sonG was not the samE as how i change in my com. They sounds so diff!!! How am i going to sing??? It's too low.... if i were to sing one octave up, it would be too high.... What should i do??? My tears nearlY burst out... i had nothing to say, i had to continue... and i did so. I sang the low key.. and i was shot by the judges jialat jialat then... as espected :( But honestly, i put in a lot of effort in finding the background music, deciding the song and even practised dancing!!! omg... end up it was the worsT song that i performed last nite...

After all, i got a 1st runner up. I didnt really feel happy, i didnt feel sad either. I had no feeling... at all actually... because i Saw everyone's performancE laz nitE... And i knew tat i wouldnt get the campion becos of mY Chinese song... But wht to do??? I am satisfied... at leasT i got a 1st runner up for this competition. I've tried my best :)

Happy Weekend :)

2008-05-11T21:17:00.000-07:00

hahaha!!! I had greaT weekend man!!!
Hm... How say leh? Saturday morning i work in e Library. Immediately after work, i went to Bee's placE and we relax there. Watching Cloverfield... haha... tht show so dizzy man!! watch will fall alseep le lo... bc the previous nite work till veh late ma. But bee nevER blame me, he leT me sleep instead, haha, with my chou chou =)
Then eveNing, we went to Bishan Junction8 to buy Wida's birthdaY present. She is a nice gal, who likes Pink colour. The parkt was held at Botanic Garden, sweet place =D End up me & Bee were the outcast one cos both of us wore black, as shown in the pic abovE. We didn't staY for long, cos we want to caTch a movie at Plaza Sing. However, omg... no parking, super terrible... thus we went back to Dempsy Road, e placE which we went to before we pak tor. Wah!! So much changes there... We went to the Ben's & Jerry's to take look. So much memories....THen, we went home le lo...
Sunday :)
Morningm i gave tuition to Felix. Then went straight to YCK meet bee. WE went town. WOW!!! finally.... i can watch IRON MAN!!! It's a nice show, Tony, keep cars like toy cars. OMG... this is the lifE i want to leaD in future. kekez...he is brilliant!! the iron man is cool :P
After the movie, we walked to Ochard. Hm... shopping there, boughT a pair of jeans and necklace there, to compensate e one that i've lost.
Well... The feeling was like when we initially pak tor tht time. Very sweet...E chocolatE also veh sweet :)
hehe...
Can't wait for Next week.... finsih my UT and go KL Lo~~

Relief...

2008-05-05T22:42:00.000-07:00

Arh... Feel so relief now.... After calling joey to clarify things, i feel much better. I asked jojo whether i can tag along for the Batam trip, he said up to me. A bit upset la... bc i wasn't invited ma... But after a while, the moment i finally got appetite to eat, i recieved jojo's msg "i'm serious. You can come along. If you can come along better. Shopping there heard cheap. Then you can go shop for all you like. Got full body spa some more."
OMg.... so touch....feel much much better now. Although i still worry about his mum tat issue, but i really feel much better cos jojo accepted me. He let me go with him. i feel so happy :) i can temporary forget abt all the other things, but i want is tt jojo dun feel pressurized anymore. Cos i really want to prove that i change. Really....
Aihs... 2day whole day didn't do aything again... feel so depressed and pale. No appetite. Thnk God that i clarify things out and i gain back some of e energy.
Thnx for giving me chance JOJO....
Hope to see u soon. Feel like hugginG u close to me :)

Finally...

2008-05-05T17:56:00.001-07:00

Finally.... Finally i know what's happening recently and wht's happened to Joey. Why did he change so sudden? Finally i know now...
I got no feeling... Really no feeling ald.... because finally i know the truth. & tat's the thing i want to heaR. hahaha... all these while i only give stress to joey, and i myself makes everyone dun like me. Nth to do with Joey... i m too sensitivE. hahaha... I made joey pressurized by his mum, and i didn't even know that... omg... how dump am i?? Juz because his mum said i over sensitive then he feel stress?? Joey, r u still hiding sth from me?
Juz now Joey sms me, said he will be going to Batam with his friends during the Vesak day Holiday. Air Force friends rite??? hahaha.... THen i said ok lo. Besides ok, what can i say?? I was crying when i saw His msg.... my tears rolled down. Get away trip??? i tot get away will bring me along... like tat time what we planned, go penang, melacca??? Felt like kena dumped ald.... i still thick skin and asked "me leh?", and i got the answer that i didn't want to hear the most "I dun know". Hahaha.... Feel like saying NO. But i cant.... because i promise i will follow whatever decision He made, i will respect him. I will let him do whatever he want. Even if i unhappy with it, i will not say it out, i will not express it. This is what i promised, can't break the promise anymore. I am going to lose him.... going to lose him... i understand, joey needs time. He wants to relax, get away from me, because i only make him suffer. I understand.... No feeling... no feeling...
Does this relationship still valid?Hai you yi yi ma? I asked myself. Everything seems like wo yi xiang qing yuan de. Keep begging for forgiveness. hahaha... Do we still have chancE to watcH IRON MAN together?

I feel so sorry...

2008-05-04T22:55:00.000-07:00

It has been a whole morning, bee never sms me. I worry about him. I scare he angry with me. Thus i send mms, sms to him. Nobody reply me. Eventually i called him. My phone call was rejected. A msg arived from Bee, he sad he was sleeping, he was very tired. OMg.... it's my fault.... Bee said he was late this morning, he forgot to do his Duty, he skippeD his lunch juZ to take a nap and i still called him and disturbed him. Omg.... i feel so sorry... really really sorrY. I didn't knoW i've affected his daily life. I didn't know. Now even no msg from bee for the whole morning, i feel uneasy.... really uneasy...
I have no mood to do anything... nothing... The classroom is super duple cool, as cool as my heart. I miss bee so much...I dun wanT these rubbish anymore... i dun want. I miss those life before & when we just paktor, so sweet... so romantic... I miss the feelinG of hugginG & Holding hand with bee. Nobody else... dun know why... jusT love him so much...
Bee ar... Please forgivE me. I didn't mean to affect your life. I myself feel miserable.
Wating for your phone call and sms.

Love,
Cindy

Sorry Joey

2008-05-04T18:00:00.000-07:00

To Dearest Joey,

Jojo, i really love u a lot.... Love to the extent whereBy i will lost controL and dont know what i am doing or even do whatever you want. All these thingS thaT are happening i won't deny thaT wasn't my fault. I know i am too sensitive over some issue and u dun like my behaviour. I've been trying to change all these while. I controlled myself not to shout at u. I talked to u nicely. But eventually u shouted at me 1st and i lost my control. I am sorry for everything. Sorry for making you suffer. I can't take these kind of things anymore. U said you are confused. Yes, i am the one who make u confuse again... hahaha....seriously, i feel lost as well. I think i am not doing the wrong things because i only wanted to talk things out, but i didn't expect u would have such big reaction. I never want to break up with you because i really love u a lot a lot. I know what to do now. Please don't angry anymore. I do whatever you say for the rest of my life.

Love,
Cindy

Just to Share...

2008-04-17T22:13:00.000-07:00

It has been long....

2008-04-17T22:02:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!!!
It has really Been lonG since i lasT blogged..... Why whY why????
Since i moved house, i have difficulties in switch on the MIO cos mt landlord said wanT saVe Electricity. According to her, electricity Bill increaSe again. Is it true?? I thinK bullshiT one la....
Aihs.... New environment.... sometimeS really cAnnot get used to it. No heater.. OMG!!! somE1 like me, a princeSS, how can live withouT heatER??? bUt... yup, i aM going ThrougH it lo... Boil hot waTer before i want showeR, no choice.
Sounds likE livinG in thE societY 50 yearS ago rite??? Ke lian....
Then then theN... At nite Go home thaT time supER scare lo!!!! Tat day got 1 Ti Go Pek, Said HI to me out of suddEn... OMG!!!!! cannot Tahan sia......
Anyway, can deny thaT my room is Big lo...... hehe~~ This is sTH i feel happy about :)

See the Piglet on Top?? It's from my Baby brotHEr, so TouchinG YA!!!!! omg.... He is supEr nice lo!! Spend all his moneY buy Piglet stuffs for me, OMG.... i shoulD treaT him a LOt more better :P

AnywaY, ppl saY i sliM down quitE a lot. Hm... Actually it's truE la... Even my Boob Shrink!! Opps... ShH.... dun tell otherS ya. But sincE reopen Sch, my appetitE come Back again... And i consumeD a LOT of Chocolate... Now stARt to worry ald.... Scare i faT back lo... I dun want dun want!!!! How how?????

Happy Birthday to me :)

2008-02-04T18:51:00.001-08:00

This is the Sherly temple, Veh nice oo :)

Whew!! Handsome Bee & hs Aglio Olio....

Me & my Penne with Scallop... Really nice..... muz try!!!

Well..... these photos were taken on 3rd Feb 2008, which is my 19th birthday at the Al Dente @ Esplanade. It is an Italia Restaurant..... the food was nice.... Especiallymy scallop... hahaha~~~ Thnx bb foR GivinG me such good food :)

Well.... besides good food, bee gave me a present too. A pigleT Mug... haha... pink colouR one ok??? Me likE the PurplE one la.... but.... hehe, as long as Bee give one, me like :)

Then then then, we wenT to AMK hub and mAde our 1st couplE ring.. THis is my 1st time weaR couple ring, very Excited, dunno which one to choose. AftE struggling for 20 mins, we decided to take the doule switch Zircon ring. It is a double layer one, the inner is black and outer is silver colour. There is a small diamonD in the middle of the engravin of "Joey and Cindy". So we can Swith the silvEr layer to reaD ouR name. Veh nice one!!!!!

Hm... at nitE, my didi givE me a paiR of Heels, veH nice one also. Ke lian de didi, spend so much $$ on my shoe... Used up all his ang pao money... I heard ald i cry sia..... Touching..... I still owe him last yeaR birhdaY present.... i so bad......

Then, After the dinner at theFu zhou Restaurant, mummy show me didi's new year goodies. He made it himself, the honey cornflakes. Omg!! It was delicious.... anyway, he save 1 box for me ald, so i can bring it bacK to Sg...

At nitE, Arnd 10+, Wei ZhuanG come and fecthed me with his V6. Haha... We went to Tebrau ciTy meet YentinG, Alex & Weiming. Really long Time neveR see them, i was exciteD, but they likE nth nth like tat lo.... Nvm, after the supper at foodcourT, we wenT to Pelangi for a drink. I just watcheD them play lo. never feel boring, bc one of their fren- Daniel, keep losing and kena penalty. haha..... stupid......I think hege siao one la, want drink more then say la... hor???? hahaha.....

Well... I enjoyed my Bd this year. Thanks for all who remembeR my BD and Thnk Bee the most:)

Love ya

Happy new Year to all of u :)

6th Month AniversarY !!!!!

2008-01-21T21:49:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA!!~~ HAppy 6th montH!!! Baobei~~

It waS really not EaSy to mainTain a relationsHip. This is th longEst relationShip that i haD eveR had for my entirEd life. And this is tHe man THat i loVe the mosT in my lifE so far :) Not Easy ar.... He is the greAtest SupporT in my lifE. WhenevEr i saD, i encounter dificulties, he will definitely Reach ouT for me.... I will ony lisTEn to him when I feel sTress. I LovE u so mUch that i could Not beaR to leaV u my baby....

JoeY... AlthougH we havE no chancE to see eacH othEr today and celebRate it togeTHer, But as lonG as ihaVe ur lovE, i am contented :)

See thi photo?? This was taken on Sunday, Bee CuT his hair ler... so neat & tidY.... veH handsomE rite??? Me like :D

Arh!! Hao xianG ni ar baobeI.... tmr Can see u le... hahahaha..... :) lovE u ooo :)

Muack muacK~

Bao Bei BB.....

2008-01-10T19:40:00.001-08:00

HHhhmmmmm....................

Tao yan de baby... Play me huh??

haha.... last nite, i went to yishun for the P4 Malay tuition 1st lesson.

After 8, i took bus back to yishun MRT and intend to go back woodlands and buy fruits.

Bee told me that eugene will be ing over to pass me sth, so he wants to know roughly wht time i will reach hostel.

Initially didnt think so much, i just said ok. After thought for a while, sth hesitate me. "Wht thing so important that he can't pass me tmr??"

Then, i called bee and asked him. Buth said he waS bz, he promise to call me ltr.

Ok...waiting then...

reaching sch, recieved call from bee. Just normal tok cobk lo.

Then he asked me where m i?? Oh... near to the hostel, i replied.

He said, eugene will be reaching soon, cos he aske him to reach there by 9.15pm

okok... i wait for him.

The momenti reach hostel downstairs, a car came in.

Oh!!! not eugene's car, go up 1st. THat's wht i was thinking... at the same time, bee still talking to me in phone.

When i rach the gate, bee asked " wait wait, where r u going??? why don't u wait for eugene?"

huh??? how come he know i m going up???

immediately i turn back, saw someone talking in the hp standing beside the car which turned in just now.

Bee book out!!!! Surprise!!!!!

haha.... No water @ camp, thus he can book out for 1 nite.

so sweet.... still spend time pulling my leg...

haha....... but i m veH happy!! really....

Yeah..... really lovE him more & more eacH day :)

2nd day

2008-01-09T21:10:00.000-08:00

HEhe.... think was the photo taken last nite - bee's 1st nites out.

Hm... i was quite happy that he could come out although it was only a few hours' time.

We went to Jalan KAyu and had prata thERe, then straightly went back to hosteL.

Actually we did nth ,much... jusT lying on e bed and talk talk.

Very fast, 10pm ald... so sad... bee had to report to camp le...

This is one of the photos that we took last nite. Haha.... u see bee??? so cheeky ya...

Yup... nth much, just told bee abt whT was going arnd me & my frends & stuff like tat lo. then he also shaRe with me about His experiencE in camp.

Just noW bee saId, their officer gave them a chance to those who would like to apply to become a lab tech, cos it will be a 8~5pm shift, no stay in.

Bee said he apply ald, if he can get it, he will be doing all the sai gang, but meanwhile, he can take part time degree which enables him to save more time after he complete NS. Thus, we can get marry earlier and stuff....

hahaha.. but bee, do sai gang very sian de wor....

I Hope u learn sth useful la.... dun bc of save time then do sth u dun like k??? There is still possibility that u can be a technician with 8~5 shift de...

No matter how long it takes, we still can get marry in the end, ok??? I want u to enjoy your university life, maybe i have the chance to go in also ler???

haha...

let's wait and see how lo....

Cheers~~~

Stay in :(

2008-01-08T17:49:00.000-08:00

Arh.... Initially thouGht bee reaLLy got 8~5. But... that was referring to e OrientatioN programme only. Start from today, bee has to stay in @ e Air Force school at Paya Lebar until 27th Feb.
OMg.... it is really lonG to go, even longeR than the timE he spenD @ tekonG.
Be said every week he has 1 night out day, suppose to be wednesday, so we can at least meet each other for a whilE then. I hope is relly WEdnesdaY, bC that's the day lefT free specially for Bee.

Today is a wednesdaY, is also e 1st day he stay in there, i wondeR whetheR he has nights out tonite. Hope thaT he has, bc we didn't meet each other yesterday. All these while, with his clearing leaves, my sch holiday & e public holiday, we met each other almost everyday. Suddenly cannot see each other again, the feeling is juz Like tat time in tekong, hen xin ku..... Even dun feel likE eaTing. After tat incident, i realized that i lovE him deeper & deepeR. I can't live withouT him. I can't find anotheR person better thaN him. Maybe this Is how it be? BC i think He is e Best!!! THE moment i knew He was goinG TO stay in today, i changed my library shifT with other. BecausE i really dun wanT to miss a singlE chance to meet him.

My heaRt was really pain lasy nitE, i couldn't control myself and started crying bc Bee changed his status to "single" unexpectedly as both of us chage to "in a relationship" a couple weeks ago. He claimeD it was bc of TAT incident, he forgot to cHange it back. Anyway, i dun wanT to let this small matter bloW up, thus jusT forgeT abt it.

Bee ar... reaLLy lovE u, hope u can come back and see Wht i wriTe asap. Hope to see u tonite :)

Everything :)

2007-12-28T09:45:00.000-08:00

This is da ICE BALL in kukup, is very sweet, buT it also very "sweet" bc i share wiF bee. Besides, this is the 1sT thing that we atE when we reaChed kukup oo :)

Yo!!! my handsomE bee at the jettY :)

Puffer Fish @ Kelong:)

hohoo~~ HandsomE boY & pretty Gal wiTH cheeCKy face :)

This is my neW hair style, havent Seasoned yet, look a bit wierD, like a puddle.... hahaha~~I permed this on the christmas Eve, then Bee acc throughout this perming and dyeing process (10.30am~3pm) so sweet :) HoweveR, the chemicaL burn my skin and i have a big patch of darkeR torn skin... scare got scAR sia... zen me ban??? itchy ler....

Bee cut his haIr too!!!! very handsome ner!!!!!

THis my 18 yeaRs old christmaS present from bee. THis is the mosT expensive bag thaT i had ever haD. Bee treaT me really good.... THnx bee......thnX for everYthing that u haD done for me :)

Merry Christmas

2007-12-27T08:26:00.000-08:00

Its kind of late but Christmas was already over. It wasn't a very interesting one though. Because on the day of Christmas Eve, Cindy and I just got back from Malaysia and both of us were exceptionally tired. So it was totally impossible for us to attend any crazy countdown party.

But one special gift that I received from my baby was a Fossil watch. I've been sort of like eying on this particular watch for quite awhile now. But before Christmas, baby was already planning on getting me a present. I sort of guessed that it will be the watch. But still, I didn't pin my hopes too high for it.

A couple of days back, my silly girlfriend who ran up and down in Singapore just to look for the particular watch that I wanted. It seems that almost every watch outlet in Singapore ran out of that particular color. But she took the effort to scout around almost the entire Singapore. Whats worst is that she even called up Fossil branch to check on the stock and was given a negative response. Because the particular color of that watch has been quite around for some time, the stock naturally stops production.

But with her ever persistent character of Cindy's, she still looked around for it but ends up deciding on getting another color but of the same model. Color wise is very similar but looks way much more nicer. This is considered my first best present I've ever received from anyone. Not even my mom.

Its been real memorable. One of the best presents ever received in my whole 20 years. =)

U no3 Where....

2007-12-10T19:44:00.000-08:00

29th November 2007

2007-11-29T19:55:00.001-08:00

3rd day ald..... Arh!! miSS my baby sia.....
SleepinG in thE muD eh??? Go Feed mosquito eh??? KE lian..... i sleepinG on my BiG bed, then u so ke lian.... Miss ur EWW ma???

Early in da morning, i came bacK from JB. Then same thing lo, kena pusheD from the men besides me. Is MEN ooo!! not MAN oo!!! Dunno Y nowaDays, malE become more & morE gentLemanless!! aihs.... Tat's the reason i dun WANt cum back in da morning.

Then the whole daY moodswIng bc of thosE irresponsiblE team memberS.

This is the 1sT thursdAy i neveR go RR and Zuo bo~
Went to NUSS work lo.... kinD of ok la.... buT bc of quite a no. of ppl who off day, then less ppl working lo. Work till 11pm, reaChed hom 12.30am. Sian... kenA record.
Aihs... If kena chAsed how?????

28th November 2007

2007-11-29T17:42:00.000-08:00

Whew!! Finally, finish my PP presentation!!

This pp really spend quite a lot of my time, haha not only mine la... i mean....

but my comment from the 2nd accessor okok only lo. but i think will pass la, bc she was quite astonished by my poster... hahaha~~

Aihs... besides PP, i feel that i did nth today.

I did not even contribute in my 3rd meeting because i went back class at 1+ when ppl finished everything ald.

Lesson end quit early, 3 + like thaT.

Then, i went back to JB with the 1 who did not go 4 lesson & stayed at my place 4 the whole day --Ronny.

6+pm then i reached home le. Immediately, i go cut my fringe.

haha... cut till silly silly.... then went for dinner wIth mummy

:( My house no ppl, only 2 of us bc mei mei all workinG THen didi go bacK penanG.

!st time feel so lonelY & so bo liao At home.

Dun even feel Like watchinG moviE. Play piano alSo play tiLL half then start talkiNg to Josephine, my BEst Fren sincE young!! Yoyo!!~

Then, do nth lo, Lying on the sofA & KiaO my leG higH high.

And......

1 daY paSS....

27th November 2007

2007-11-27T06:20:00.000-08:00

Aihs.... bad daY sia....
baby did not sms me or call me 4 the whole day...
Damn miss u aR.... How r u in the fielD camp?? It's juZ so miseraBle u know??? can'T see u, canT tok to u... can't even fEEl u sia....

Aihs.... 2daY kena shot Down by thE moduLE chaiR... KNs.... olD proB cum back again...
She damn fierce la!! ask qs then ask la, so fierce 4 wHt...
Hai wo de teaRs cannot Tahan right afTer my presentatIon and RolleD down all the waY to my chEEk...
Si bEh kns.... then keep tremblinG like Shit... She damn hearTless lo.... did say anything, the faCe blaCk like Shit, look damn bitcHy. Say pretty not pretTY, acT like siBeh Pretty like Tat... BITCH.... i wont toK to her anYmore...huh~~~Anu still ok 2day, at leasT she tok to me afterWards.

After sch work in libraRy, the new comeRs also like shit!! 1st day cum then slack like snake. SAy them, they bue shiok, still want give blaCk faCe.... huh!!! dunno who is senior lo.... kns....

AnywaY.... 2day damn Bad day lo....
But... noon JoJo called me. HAHa... i think she cuminG here studY soon. See where She staY, maybe can staY with heR ya?? since moshi say she moving out soon :( theN WO sen me bAN???

26th November 2007

2007-11-26T18:43:00.000-08:00

Oh Baby baby...
SorrY for all thE unreasonaBle argumEnt that I haD with U few daYs back...
I reaLLy felt Bad to see u likE tis bc u reaLLy treat me verY gooD...
U r reallY a good Bf of mine... i caN't livE withouT u bC u really really goOd...
Baby, thnx for ur uNderstandinG aKK these whiLE, i didnT mean to hurT u like Tat...
I promisE i try not to do it anymorE ok??

AnywaY, i have laB todaY. It's not about Drosophila but is abouT the Barr bodY in differentiatinG male & female.
Haha... THe picturE abovE is my ChEEk cell... hehe, butterfly shape wor!!! nice ritE???
kekeZ.....
AnywaY... cannot see my Barr Body wor. how??? thaT's mean i m a Guy!!! YOYOYO!! go bro Go!! babY... zen me ban?? u Fall in lovE with a Guy, man!!! hahaha...
Aihs.... babY goinG outfieLD le.... Few days cannoT call me...
Wu~~~~

22nd November 2007

2007-11-21T17:15:00.000-08:00

Happy 4th Month AnniversaRy!!!!!!!!
Yo... sorry baby for did not upDate mY blog for so lonG...
Let's starT from saTurdaY...

SaturdaY... basically we Didn't do anything on tAt day bc baby veRy tireD, he wenT home ald, then took a sort Nap, till 7pm. During thaT perioD, i zuo bo lo...
WalkinG hEre & there bc i coulDn't sleep.
I wenT down, theN help bee's parentS to move some grandparents' stufFs & folD somE clothes.
Then, we wenT to my plaCe and bEE staYed wiTh me sTill sundaY.

Sunday... We went to sHeng shionG for some dailY necessities then went baby's placE to take his caR. After tAT, we wenT to town!!!!! Shopping!!!~ YEAH... no la, we went to Chinatown 1st, to plan for out Bangkok Trip, then we go Ochard shoppinG.

Monday... sian day... bee didnt go tekong. He went to the discovery centre 1st then go bak tekong. I did nth... after UT, no activity also. But i recieved Angie's email today. "All the best", this is wht she said. Yup, officially quit RR ald... want say me heartless, also can bc i made up my mind not to care anything abt RR anymore:> Finally, relaX~

TuesdaY... Sian day 2. After sch Working in Library. Although same cks witH HER, but We never tok to eaCh other. Aihs.... How cum???

Wednesday... EakZ~~ Threate appreaciation, no mood 2 go scH. After scg got NUSS work, SiaNz again, i work till 10pm cannot ald, headache.... go home rest...

Today... 4 month anniversary... so fasT!!! babY, u break my recorD le oo~~ hehe... longesT relationship sia~~ hehe... rmB how we know eaCh other??? Rmb our 1sT kisS???
hahaha...
Miss u baby....
cum back cum back~~

15th November 2007

2007-11-14T23:31:00.000-08:00

Man - A Chemical Analysis

Element : Man

Symbol : Ah (short for a$$hole)

Atomic Mass : Accepted as 70. May vary from 50-150 kg.: Highly reactive at 150 or higher. (avoid at all costs)

Quantitative : Accepted at 7 inches, wavy brown hair, 6' 0" in length,though some isotopes can be as short as 4 inches.

Discoverer : Eve

Occurance : Found following duel element Wo, often in highconcentration near a perfect Wo specimen.

Physical properties :

1) Obnoxious when mixed with C*H*-OH (any alcohol).

2) Tends to fall into very low energy state directly after reaction with Wo(Snore ... zzzzz).

3) Gains considerable mass as specimen ages, loses reactive nature.

4) Rarely found in pure form after 14th year.

5) Often damaged as a direct result of unlucky reaction with polluted form ofthe Wo commom ore.

6) Tarnishes easily. Needs constant polishing and attention

7) Crusty exterior but may be soft underneath.

8) Naturally found in the crude state but may be purified

9) Simple in structure.

10)Often found in the gaseous state.

11)Spontaneous polarity changes relative to surrounding specimens.

Chemical properties :

1) All forms desire reaction with Wo, even when no further reaction is possible.

2) May react with several Wo isotopes in short period under extremelyfavorable conditions.

3) Usually willing to react with what ever is available.

4) Reaction Rates range from aborted/non-existant to Pre-interaction effects(which tend to turn the specimen bright red.

5) Reaction styles vary from extremely slow, calm and wet to violent/bloody.

6) Great affinity for fatty substances.

7) May react violently under pressure.

8) Low boiling point, high melting point.

9) Attraction to large quantities of iron.

10)Poorly bonds with other substances.

11)Pure substances are rarely found except when covalently bonded.

Storage : Best results apparently near 18 for high reaction rate,25-35 for favorable reaction style.

Uses : Heavy boxes, top shelves, long walks late at night,general repairs, free dinners for Wo...

Tests :

1) Pure specimen will rarely reveal purity, while reactedspecimens broadcast information on many wavelengths.

2) Appearance greatly improves when placed in a sports car.

3) Easily titrates to yellow under stress.

4) Never true blue.Caution : Tends to react extremely violently when other Man interferes withreaction to a particular Wo specimen. Otherwise very maleableunder correct conditions.

Woman - A Chemical Analysis

Element : WomanSymbol : WO

Atomic Weight : Accepted as 59, but known to vary 50-88.

Discoverer : Adam

Occurance : Copious quantities in all Urban areas,with slighlty lower concentrations inSuburban and Rural areas. Subject to seasonal fluctuations.

Physical Properties:

1) Surface usually covered with sticks painted film.

2) Boils at nothing, freezes without reason.

3) Melts if given special treatment.

4) Bitter if used incorrectly. Can cause headaches. Handle with care!

5) Found in various states; ranging from virgin metal to common ore.

6) Yields to pressure applied to correct points.

7) Undergoes inpredicatable spontaneous dehydrolyses (weeps).

Chemical Properties :

1) Has great affinity for Gold, Silver, Platinum and many of the PreciousStones.

2) Absorbs great quantities of expensive substances.

3) May explode spontaneously if left alone on dates.

4) Insoluble in liquids, but there is increased activity when saturated inalcohol to a certain point.

5) Repels cheap material. Neutral to common sense.

6) Most powerful money reducing agent known to Man.

Uses : Highly ornamental, especially in sports cars.Can greatly improve relaxation levels.Can warm and comfort under some circumstances.Can cool things down when it's too hot.

Tests : Pure specimen turns rosy pink when discoveredin natural state.Turns green when placed beside a betterspecimen.

Caution :

1) Highly dangerous except in experiencedhands. Use extreme care when handling.

2) Illegal to possess more than one.

14th November 2007

2007-11-14T22:37:00.000-08:00

Arh... boring day... ppl no need go to sch, ME need...
Sian..... 2day's prob was abt Children's threatre...
SIAn....... no definite answeR again...
Bee so bz 2 daY.... whoLE morning also no msG 4 me...
But i understand la, he got live Firing ma... very tiring one...
but he managed to msg me @ arnd 4pm.
he very tireD... stiLL need to wash toilet, washed Liao still need to rewAsh.
Ke Lian de Baby....
until 11 + then we managEd to tok a whilE....
Zhen de hen KE Lian oo...
Bee slept so latE lo....
But heng he couLd wake up laTe also.
BAby....... dun worry, u coming back soon :)
CheerS :D

13th November 2007

2007-11-13T21:19:00.000-08:00

MEdTEch UT 2 today...

aihs... no mood to study...wacTch Naruto for almost all my breaK...

Never tok to beV also... dunno how la...

I scaRe... but used to be so closE to hEr, suddenly like tAt... also dunno wht to do....

I dunno how 2 faCE her... feel scaRe.............. really scaRe....scaRe she is also anothER XIAO YEN CHING... kns......

Think also trembling....

dunno, see how lo....

BeE.. miss u miss u~~~

12th November 2007

2007-11-13T21:16:00.000-08:00

WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had my Hep B booster injection today.....

Damn damn painful!!!!

How i wish bee were here with me :(

11th November 2007

2007-11-13T21:04:00.001-08:00

Today is the book in day, book in day book in day~~~~
eventually, still forgave bee ald... woke up, brush up, went to find him...
Yet... bee came & fetch me up 2 his plaCe
Do nth, watched "28 weeks later" at his place, haD lunch at AMK, then went back watcHed show again... bc bee wants to stay at homE ma....
hahaha.....
Hm....then i was invited for dinneR with his family...
Bee's brother, Jason, his gf Janice, his sis May Ann, his daddy, mummy all met @ Boon Keng (his dad's office there).
Wen Dong chicken rice, heard be4??? Yup. we had tat for dinner... pity i couldn't eat much la... on diet ma... eat lil bit then full ald... sian~~~
NAh.. i took this pic, bee in uniform, haha... cheeky faCE expression.... silly billy baby joey lar....
Hen she bu de, but eventually still send bee to Pasir ris ler......
after taT, his parents send me all the way bacK to hostel.. haha... so gd ooo :>

10th November 2007

2007-11-13T20:42:00.000-08:00

We woke up quite late... haha feel lazy, then went to YCK for lunch as bee's dad bought lunch for him. After tAt, we went to Bugis.

SHOPPING!!!!! haha..... i didn't buy anything ler!!! weird rite??

No la... i didnt buy anything, bc we want to go Bangkok for holiday end of this Year, THus i was thinking buy anything i want there lo, cheaper ma :)

Anyway, also havent plan our holiday yet.... havent book air ticket, room like tat... aihs...

Mr EE will not be arnd during that period also, so we got no free tour guide lo... sIAN!!!!!!!!!!

But we stilL going!! hehe... can't wait ooo......

Well.... bee made me agry 2day.

Initially his bro was sayign that he would be staying @ his gf's place so bee asked me go acc him.

But end up, his bro came back... then bee was saying want send me home after meeting his frenz lo...

i was like.... damn bue shiok la~ Ask me come then come, ask me go then go....

But after that, we settled ald, bc i was too tired to quarrel with him...

Then i fell asleep.........was thinking... not going to meet bee the next day... bc he made me angry....

Zzz.......................................

9th November 2007

2007-11-13T20:36:00.001-08:00

As what i promised, early in the morning, i went to AMK hub meet Bee and acc him go see Doctor.
Nth happened la, he just want to do check up for his shouldER, see can claim letter or not. We waiteD damn long... from arnd 10+am ~1pm. Then take med still need to wait...
Wah... sian ar..... u know la... i cannot wait de... tat's y in Malaysia, always go private de :)
But, this time break record lo, waited 4 so long....
After that, also tired le... then went home rest.
haha.. whole day do nth also, but very happy bc stay with bee for all these while :)

8th November 2007

2007-11-13T20:21:00.000-08:00

Happy Deepavali!!!

Happy 21st BirthDaY to xUn as well :)

Wow!!! finally, bee come back lo (officially)~~~ hehehe... verY very happy:D

Today, we wenT to Plaza Singapura.

Our main purpose was to watch movie la, bc bee said he feel like watching movie.

But no nice movie wor... althought my SAW 4 came ald, but R21... siao.... me only 18 lo :( Even bee also cannot watch....

Dunno y, nowadays a lot of movie we can't watch...

SIan.... sian till we watch "Your Name is Justine"....

Yi su pian... understand???

The story was abt this lady, cheated by a guy, said go 4 holiday @ another country...

Then end up became prostitute as they threated to kill her grandma in Poland...

Heng both of us never fall asleep lo :)

This girl eventually killed the guy who cheated her, and went into the jail, claimed back her identity, then went back to Poland. But unfortunately, her grandma died....

so saD..... i mean the story la...

After the moviE, we went bacK to YCK and had dinner at bee's place :)

7th November 2007

2007-11-13T20:12:00.001-08:00

Hehe...
See my baby in army uniform???
Handsome rite???
Today my bee supposed to book out de ma.. in fact, early in the morning he book in bc he only got 2 day's Mc, & 2day is the 3rd day.
6.30am, bee booked in.
While for me... haha sleep till 12pm.
Then showeR, wear nice nicE go fetCh bee @ pasir Ris.
On my waY, i recieved 1 msg... unknown no...
After i read the msg, then i stunned.... be it was bee's mummy hp no.
She asked me whether know bee wht time going back, bc she wanted to cook porridge for him.
Again. so good de mummy :)
haha... after replied to her, she said she would cook for both of us.
Stunning ya... how come she got my hp no??
No wonder la.... Bee's daddy using bee's old hp, which got my no, then the daddy gave it to his mummy...
haha... sia si wo le.....
Yup.. me & bee went homE rite after tat.
Bee naughty lo, nearly couldn't find him bc he hide dunno where, couldn't recognize him :D
Yo!! the porridgE was really nice. The FROG porridge, sweet swEEt de, hehehe~~
Damn Shiok!! Whole day do nth, traveL to Pasir Ris, dunno spend me how much time ald lo, but is worth it de :)

6th November 2007

2007-11-13T18:12:00.000-08:00

Hehe... This is Bee in his Botak Head~
keke... look so 'young', somemorE jumping arnd lye tAt, damn funny :)
Hm... bee got 2 days MC. Today is the 2nd day ald.
Early in the morning, i followed Bee's daddy & mummy went out bc i got full shift.
Nth much happened...
but Bee's mum went home @ arnd 11+am
i also dunno whether she got go worK or not, but i saw her take train lo... she said she was going to City Hall, tat was arnd 8+am.
Bee said her mummy claimed MC, then she went home cooked porridge for bee...
Haha... dunno is Bee's mummy sick or bee sick lo....
Bee really gd life oo :)
Early in the morning, mummy sayang him ald..
haha... i also want this kind of mummy!!!!~
(although my mummy quite gd also la;)

5th November 2007 (11th day)

2007-11-13T16:43:00.000-08:00

As usual, i was working on that day.
Nite shift anyway... After i bought my hair straightener, just went to work lo...
PEter & Andrew working on tat day also...
initially was like happy happy de....They sTil asked me when bee will come Back.
It was a quiet nite in Bistro... very quiet... nobody at all, damn sian. stANd there for 3 hours...
Just abt to bZ, Peter Said Bee Book Out ald..
I thoughT he anyhow say, but rite aftER that ,i could feeL the vibration in My Pocket.
Omg... not gd man!!!
Immediately, i went to toileT and Checked my phone...
Ya... bee book out lo....
Dunno should feel sad or happy
waiTed for so long, he finally book out...
But he book out bc he fevER...
Tat nite, i keep pestering Jeffery & Alan, i wanteD to knock off early, i dun caRe.
As whaT i wished, i knock off @ 10pm
Then i calleD bee and told him tAT i waS going to His place & visit him.
But...he seemed dun really wanT it....
i was Sad...but eventuaLLy sTill go there...
I knew i waS stupiD, didn't think so mucH.
He was rite, how should i go hoMe then?? It was ald so late... he sick, no1 can send me home.
Tat nitE, i stayed at his place as His mum suggested tat.
No toothbrusH, no contact LEns solution, nth....
I only brought alonG my handbag, tat's it..
But i was happy, bc i caN stay beside bEE & acc his 4 the wholE nite.....

1st November 2007 (7th day)

2007-11-01T22:18:00.001-07:00

Oh... Bee went in almost 1 week le....
Today, i received Xun's msg for inviting me to his 21st Birthday Party at his place.
Actually is very contradicting, bc i decided not to give him any present this year....
Yup..... bUt.... u know.... things always like thaT....
Go againsT ur wisH....
Hm.... Somemore, his birthday is on the 2nd day Bee book out.
I promised bee to acc him for the 4 days... I said i want to stick witH him de ma....
Now how??? Xun's invitation was a big surprise 4 me, i didnt expect him to invite me to his party... Every year, he will spend his BD with his frenz.... Although i was the one who gave hin present...
Contradicting lo....
I told bee abt this, he said he can't go with me bc of the NS thing....
Then i have to go by myself....
I said i consider a while, maybe go 4 a while in evening, then come back immediately bc he stays at town ma...
Hm... But is it a good idea??? What will bee think???
Although he said he dun mind... But if the girl he likes be4 invite him to her party, i will die die tag along one lo... Sure not feeling good de ma....
Aihs...
I was thinking for the whole nite... i might not go to his party....
I dun want to leave bee alone ler......
Baby Jo.... 5 more days u will be back to me.... I luv u... WAiting 4 U :)

31st October 2007 (6th day)

2007-10-31T21:48:00.000-07:00

Oh baby... 6th day ald....
Today, bee did not msg me until at nite 10+
Ke lian cong.... his schedule to tight... bee did not even manage to shower be4 he sleep....
I could tell that he was really tired....
Aihs.... y like tat... ke lian lo....
Bee keep coughing... he still dun want go report.... later what happen then how????
Bee said he gain weight le oo!!! hehe... Don't know how FAT he is now... can't wait to hig him.. heHe... so i can cubit his fAt waist..... kekez....
Luv u baby... MuacksZ~

30th October 2007 (5th day)

2007-10-30T17:47:00.000-07:00

Happy 100 days' Anniversary!!!!! bee......
haha... so fast, we've been attached to each others for 100 days ald....
Really really happy, although we had happiness & bitterness through our these 100 days, we were able to solve to the problem and maintain our relationship, & this is what i feel proud of....
Bee..... i really miss u a lot lo.....
Today, u said u passed ur swimming, wow!!!!!! i was really happy for u lo!!
Damn proud of u, u know??? is like... u have not been singing for so lonG, tHen u still Managed to swim across thE pool and completed ur task, damn good lo!!!!!!!
Hehe.... bee good ya, so have more frEE time in futurE le lo :)
Hm... today is the 5th day bee in Tekong. REally miss him, but not thaT miserable as the 2nd & 3rd day lo. I feel much better ald.
Now, i try to sleep very early everyday, after i tok to Bee. BC.... i want to sleep "together" with bee ma, hahaha~
today, Du Li said i become prettier, bee, do u think so??? haha.. i know u can't see me now. NVM, u will see me next wed. hehe... My whole week belongs to u lo ~~
Hm... i wondering how u look like in botak ler????
hehe.... never c be4, difficult to imagine ler.....
Bee, i know ur schedule become more tigher now, it's ok. Everynite, 10pm, waiting 4 ur call....
Eventually, Thnk GOD that let u pass ur swimming...
I luV u baby.... muacKs muacKs muackZ~

29th October 2007 (4th day)

2007-10-29T22:01:00.001-07:00

Hehe... baby, enjoy ur meal???
Bee said wht he's looking for everday in Tekong is the meal.
The meal is nice, this is what he said.
Bee said his bunk mate are lame, play lame games, talk lame stuff.... sian...
Haha... heng bee got me & the sea!!!
Bee said, the sea remind him the day that we went east coast & pak tor....
haha.... yalo, tat nite was really sweet.... i wont forget that day :)
bee... sory for being blur last nite as i was having mestrual cramp and i was in semi-unconcious. But what i looking forward, is everynite's 9.30~10.30pm.
I want to tok to Bee... haha... sweet swee toking....
Ya...angie's wedding will be on the same day as bee book out.
Dunno whether want to perform or not, bc dunno bee what time can book out ler.....
Her wedding @ GoodwoodPark hotel.... aihs... feel like goinG... but bee how?????
BeE... i miss u lo.... faster comE back.....

28th October 2007 (3rd day)

2007-10-28T19:14:00.000-07:00

My baby is so handsome!!! u see???
Aihs.... 3rd day ald. Heard from Bee that he is still slacking inside expecially sunday. A lot of rest slot in between. So he sms me, and i called him.
I went back to JB. But when Bee have rest time, i still called him because i want to talk to him.
haha, i told him tht i bought the foundation and the mascara ald. Bee was really clever, ask him guess he also know what i bought :)
then, i cut my hair... arh!!! so ugly.... my curl part all gone!!!!
But bee said it was nice, really??? but i dun like it lo :(
Bee said even when they book out ald, they cannot hug, hold hand, kiss and etc (intimate action) in the public in uniform. Aiyer..... how can tahan.... i want to hug bee tight tight when i go pick him up and kiss him when i can see him!!! dun care lo... but scare bee kena condemned :( Y like that de oo??????
actually 2day damn bad mood lo, bc dad PMS again. Siao, scold my bro like shit!!! damn kelian de didi... then he still say want dell my organ. Siao!! he need the $2000 or he need the space oo??? so crazy... damn angry la, go back still like tAT. nExt time dun want go back liao :(
Bee..... faster come back.........................................................................
I luv u so much........................................................................................................

27th October 2007 (2nd day)

2007-10-28T19:06:00.000-07:00

Bee, i miss u so much!!!! at Nite.. i could sleep lo.... really really tired ler....
Then, i went for tuition early in the morning. She is a malay girl call Aaqila, 5 years old only. Really naughty de lo, sad... i think she dun like me la, dun care :)
Then, noon went to NUSS work from 2~11pm. At arnd 4pm tat time, i realt cannot tahan ald, i was having severe headache bc lack of sleep. Then 5pm i was releasd for dinner.
Oh God!!! i just could not control my tears then started crying... Everybody saw, so i told them i not feeling well.
5.30pm, I started working again. Chiong all the way will 11pm. In between, bee called me. tHen i talked to him for quite a while on the phone.
Talk till i cry... really miss him a lot a lot a lot...
Bee..... come back ler.....

24th October 2007

2007-10-26T07:26:00.000-07:00

Q hehehe... today skip cls. damn shiok!!! Go Clark Quay with bee for BeER :)
However, we had this small argument abt the friendster lo..... Argue y shouldn't i add Gin..
Stupid argument... i also dun know y.... maybe both of us feel stress abt this NS thingy bar...
But afTer that we talked things out, so nth ald lo :)
Hm... we went to this bistro, called BREWERKZ. The beer was quite uniqE.
I had this GOLDEN ALE and it was quite refreshing.... lil bit bitter lo. THen same thing happened, i drink ald, my face turned red. haha, as the pic above :)
So funny, then whole face hot hot de.... hehe....
theN, we went to Central mall shopping and i went for my BAsic THeory test.
KNS... i failed my test lo, have to retake again on December :(
sian... watse time watse $$.....

1st day in Tekong!!!

2007-10-26T07:14:00.001-07:00

Oh baby baby...Today, i sent bee to teKong.. early in the morning...
Initially it was quite ok, but when we reach there, we were separated whereby i just followed bee's parents and we had the tour of the camp & bee went fot the enlistment.
During the tour, we were shown some videos on how;s the life in tekong.
I watched ald, i could control my tears as it just keep blurring my vision.
At the last part of it, it was when bee sent us to the jetty and we said bye to each other....
THe scene was like.... oh!!! dun konw how 2 say. I just hugged him & keep crying, really worry abt him, but bee seemed quite calm.
arnd 4pm, bee sms me, told me that his room is at level 5!!! omg!!!! He has to climb all the way up sia, poor thing.... THen, somemore, the bed facing the door!!! omg.... i pantang one lo.... i heard ald i damn scare u know?? Working in library that time also crying...
Aihs... until at nite, arnd 9.45pm, bee called me and he assured that he is alrite. He said that it is just like chalet or camping. hehe... glad to hear tat. Then, he told me that the room wasn't his room, they made some mistake. So as what i hoped, bee sleep on the 2nd bed next to the door, which is under the fan!!! wow!!!! damnhappy to hear tat!! so bee wont perspire le lo :)
Now, what i can do is, everyday wait for his phone call. Although we can only have short conversation, but it will be enuf 4 me to assure he is alrite inside.
Anyway, bee will be booking out on 7th november. & his parents asked me to fetch him @pasir ris. HEhe... so happy :) he can come out earlier, then december holiday also longer than expected :)

Happy 3 months aniversary!! (22nd Oct 2007)

2007-10-21T19:26:00.000-07:00

Happy 3 months aniversary!! bEE...

hehe... 3 months ald... say long not long, but our relationship seems like quite long ald....

aiyoyo... 4 more days, my bee will go NS le...

Want go NS le, still so many things happened, make him worry this worry that..

Aihs... y like thatttttt?????

Anyway, i scare i might forget, so i want to record down...

1st month: Lingerie

2nd month: Piglet in the pot

3rd month: mondo slipper with big 'diamond'

Hehe... bee, u should know what is this rite??

Sweet sweet bee....yoyoyo, really long time never blog liao lo.

But during these days, Bee & I had great time.

Like whta he mentioned, we went to JB, we went for High Tea, shopping (shoes, make up, even household items!!!)

haha... we spent a lot of time together. However, i wish we can spend more time together!!!

I want to stick to bee everyday, day & nite, every second :)

Conrad High Tea

2007-10-14T13:25:00.001-07:00

It has been some time since I last stepped in here for a blog. Probably because of my constant work schedule. But here I am, typing out another day of fun and joy with Cindy.

Yesterday, the both of us went out for high tea. We went to Conrad's high tea buffet. Before leaving to pick Cindy up from her place, we were on the phone talking about stuff. The topic about us going back on our first date came up. So we came up with the idea of today's high tea to be our re-first date again. Sounds silly but it is kind of fun to position ourselves back at where we went out for our first date. So we played along, pretending that it is our first date all over again.

So after we got off the phone, I went over to Cindy's place and picked her up. We head straight to Conrad Hotel and there we were. I was waiting for my sister and her boyfriend to show up as they were joining us for the high tea also. Not long after they arrived, we sat down at our table and selected our choice of tea. Don't be shocked. They have a great list of teas with unique name and weird descriptions. It was really an eye opener for someone like me who have been in the F&B line for years and only having the basic knowledge of normal teas.

I got my sister and her boyfriend to choose their teas first before our turn. After deciding on our teas, I told my sister about our decisions and it turned out that they chose the same teas too. Stunning. So our high tea came. Two tiers of scones and sandwiches were served and we shared among ourselves. To our surprise, the salmon sandwich was the nicest among all the pastries on the tier. There was also a line of buffet table with pastries and desserts with lots of chocolates. After finishing the tier, baby decided to head for the chocolates. I helped myself to some cookies and eclairs. Everything was great, but it seems like someone has to brush up on holding her fork properly (exactly the thing that happened on our first date) >=D. I was a little greedy and asked for a second tier of pastries. I ended up having a difficult time finishing up the food. After stuffing down everything, we took a rest to digest everything. We started talking and having laughter conversions.

Not long after, my sister's boyfriend had to leave for camp. So we went our separate ways. Baby and I headed down to town because baby decided to look for shoes. We made our way to Far East and to her FAVORITE shoe store, MONDO. One of baby's favorite hobby is shopping for shoes. She looked around and saw a pair of slippers. But she gave a second thought and decided not to buy because there wasn't a second pair which she was interested in (2 pair cost $15, thats why. Hahaha) =D. So we walked around Far East for quite sometime before deciding to move on to Takashimaya for baby's facial foundation. After which, as usual not being able to decide on which brand to buy (haha), we took off and headed home.

Upon reaching at baby's place, we had a moment of heart to heart talk. We were discussing about whether she should send me off to Tekong on my enlistment day. Baby had tears in her eyes. I know its going to be a rough two weeks after me enlisting. But I have faith that we have what it takes to hold on together.

Baby, I just wanted to let you know that I had a really great time today with you. It really felt just like our first date together all over again. Its been a pleasure to exhaust my remaining free time with you. You've been great all these while and I would really like to thank you so much for the love and company you've given me. I love you tons. OH. And did I mention that my girlfriend is hot today? =DDDDDD

1st October 2007 (71days with Bee)

2007-10-01T18:22:00.000-07:00

Happy childrEN's day to everYone who still hAVe the Heart of a chilD!!!

I had genetics today, i admit that the problem was easy and i did it quite badly because of laziness. I feel that i being bosy for too long ald.... some clsmates started afraid of being same team with me. Actually i dun like this kind of FeeliNg... i woulD ratHER be the friendLy in class instead of bossying arnd just 2 get good Grades in class. But i scare... i need a lot of As to help me get into university. I dun want to end my education in RP , which merely able to give me a cert in diploma. I need sth better, i need a gd job, i need lot of money so my children and my family will not suffer. AiHz.... dunno la, Trying my besT now is the most important thing.

PP still havent completEd yet, a bit worry la. But i am the 1 who lazy, then dun want do, can't blame anyone la, hehe.... Nowadays quite slack ald... dunno why... no mood ald... UT coming soon, omg...

Bee ar.... Really happy that u aCC me so so many daYs. I really enjoy the time thaT we spent togeTHer. Really caN't beaR to c u go NS. 24 more daYs to go, i will Try my besT to sTick wiTh u. OH ya... i still owe u one surprisE rite?? i remembER, dun worRy. I will Give it to U when the time comeS. Hehe...

2nd MoNth aniversarY :)

2007-09-25T00:05:00.000-07:00

Ah Huh!!~ Hehe.. .Happy belAted 2 month AniversaY
it was supposE on 22nd, but i was too tirEd on that daY as i was working, then went out with Bee.
It was really quite a few days back since i last blog
What i wanted to tell bee is that, who cheer me Up all tHese while. thnx for the PIggy in the PinKy Pot.
Sorry... sorry for thRowing my temPer on u withouT constructivE reason. I am stress, really streSS becausE my GPA dropped quite a lot and i i believe that i hv the potenTial to get Honour is juZ tat i want to studY or not sincE the "C" people also can Honour. Somemore is not 1, is a lot of THem get honour. KanasaI....
Aihs... cannot be helpeD... sincE brokE up with thAT stupiD heartless JErk, i admit that i have preservation in my heaRt... againT the "C" ppl...
EspeciallY thAt Stupid JERK TYH!!!!!
AnywaY... i really enjoy my Time wiTH Bee now.... Can't bare to leave him...
Hope that bee wil be posted to those 8am~5pm tat kind, so we can meet each otheR everyday :)
Haha... u know... that day we went shopping, i bought 2 new shoes!!!! hehe, damn happy :)
Hm, me, bev, fanny, janice were discussin abt whether to quit RR or not.
Contradicting la... because we really like singing, but...dunno ler...
Wait few more days then see how lo....

I also dun want de....

2007-09-19T22:37:00.000-07:00

Laz nite, i also dun know wht haPPened to me, dun knoW y i moodSwing out of sudden...

Maybe i was too StresS & too tirEd after 3 daYs lessons.

Then, i threW my temper on Bee... whiCh is the thinG that i dun wiSh and dun wANt it to happen...

But...

i couldn't control myself :(

Things happened, bee felT quite angry also, then i started To angry with him,

Started to crY and threw my tempeR again...

I also dun know wHy.... i lost control..... nearLY do the stupid thing thaT i used to intend to do wheN i want is seCondary school.

Things got worse..... we quarreled and bee Stamped the accelerator jia Lat jia lat...

i was really scare.....

then i took off my seaTbelt and want him to puLL oveR The car.

Bee refused, and i tried to open the car dooR at the traffic light theRE.

Bee locked the dooR immediately... or i would have got out of the car and go home by myself.

Ok... i am sorry k...

i know i shouldnt moodswinG when we are suppose to pak tor...

I know wht i have done would only make u worry about me more,

but i couldn't even control my emotion moreover control myself.

Again, i am sorry...

Please forgive me, bee.

Holland V2

2007-09-13T20:52:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the 1st day we came back from our trip,
2 lazy bones slept till quite late then willing to get out of the bed.
Hun brought Bee to Toa Pa Yoh to cut his hair.
Surprisingly, the aunty still remembeR Hun.
Haha... Finally Bee willing to cut his haIr :)
Hm... After thAT, as wht bee promisED Hun, He brought Hun to Holland V for dinner.
This was the 2nd time we go dine in at Holland V.
I like that placE, have that kind of cozy feeling....
IT is one of the placEa which i like to chill out at:>
We had WEstern cuisine, a lot a lot of food was on our table...
Haha... this time is a bit different, because Bee's sis- MAy AnnE & her frEnz were sitting at the table beside us.
Haha... Bee imitated the hand gestures of his sis's fren and i laugHed till i couldnt control myself.
Then, i started to have stupid ideas for example, find the loop hole of the voucher and try to make fun with it by giving 2x10% discount vouchers.
hahaha..... Stupid Bee did it!!!
keke..... what i can say is that, both of us are stupid and boh liau la....
Anyway, this is another happy outing :)
Yoyo.. btw, the pic is Bee wearibg Hun's big glittering star earing,
NiCe eh???

GentinGGGGGGG

2007-09-12T10:42:00.000-07:00

Wow... just cme back from GEnting HiGhland

This trip has beeN waitEd for so lonG and the JourneY Was tirinG... Especially the journey back

Well....

This is a very nice trip... memorable :)

WE had fUn for the whole daY, and we haD quitE gd fooD there, enjoy waTChing moviE and Live Show....

We plaYed the "flyinG coasteR" (although it is not exciting at all), the spaceshot, viking Ship (x4), the corkScrew., cyclone & etc.... many many times lo... siBeh ShIok ar@!!!!

keke...besideS playing, we watcHed "881" also.. i think it is quite a nicE show lo... bc i cry until my eYe swollem :'(

Anyway, i like the hokkien Song!!!

This trip was fUn, the only thiNG thaT is not fun was.... Bee keep vomitinG during the 1ST nite in GEnting aftER our KFC dinner....

Bc of this, we wasn't ablE to finished the live show "Fly"... (we got quite a good seat u know???)

But lucky thaT 2nD day, he was fine and we was Able to plaY at the theme park for the wholE Day...

Hm... during this tRip, i met my frenZ... haha as usual loh...

This time i met Xin yet, wei yet, Lulu & etc + Jocelyn :)

haha... such a coincidence :P

As a conclusion, this trip was really fun and i m going to miss it a lot a lot.

Presence of Joey has made my holiday memoRABLe and unforgettable :)

Thnx Bee....

HapPi TeaChers' day!!

2007-08-28T07:40:00.000-07:00

Oh!! my Bee recoveREd ald... tHNk God ar....

Btw... THnX for the Mc BreakfasT on Sunday... "Going up" ???

Hm... we haD Nice trip in Jb... finally Bee knows How i driVe eh???

well.... i m a clumsY drivER, i admit :) Sorry For keep TerkejutING u ya :P

Hm....

Today, i recieVE my 1sT TeacherS' day present from Felix.

It is a semi-transparent cup with red lid + one red octopus inside (looks like a cup with tea bag)

Haha.... So cute.... This is only my 3rd lesson for him.... theN he gave me a TeacheRs' day present ald...

REally touchinG.... i nearly cried when i saw the present on my way home :>

Unexpected + surprise + touching + sweet :D

Stunning~

2007-08-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

I was down with gastroenteritis. It is the inflame of the stomach due to irregular meals. It was really a terrible process. Initially I thought it was indigestion. I threw up everything and passed out as much as I could. But the pain was still there. So I had no choice but to get my parents to send me to the hospital in the wee hours of the morning. I was dripped with pain killers and the pain was gone. Doctor advise not to consume oily and spicy food. Not forgetting milk. He also mentioned about being dehydrated because of diarrhea and vomiting. So isotonic drinks are best to consume in order to be hydrated constantly.

The moment I arrived home, I dropped Cindy a message to let me know after she's woke up. She replied about 10+ which was when I called her to tell her that I wasn't feeling well and wouldn't be going to work. She was shocked when she heard that I was still asleep. So after I got off the phone with her, I continued sleeping. And then at around 3.40 in the afternoon, baby called me. She told me she was outside my house and ask me to come down for a while. So I got out of bed and went to the door. And there she was, standing in front of me. It was quite stunning the fact that she came all the way just to visit me. And she even made me porridge to eat. Baby, you've been really nice to me. I really don't know how to repay you for what you've done for me. I really felt bad that you had to walk all the way from the MRT to my place and back to the MRT station again. I should have actually given you a lift to the MRT, at least thats the only thing I could have done for you. But you rejected because of sparing the thought for me that I was in a sick condition.

Darling, I love what you've done for me. I really do appreciate it a lot. You've moved me. And most of all, I'm loving you even more. I'm really sorry I couldn't join you for your family dinner back in JB. Please do help me apologize to your parents okay? I'll make it up to them and most of all, I'll make it up to you soon. Thank you so much honey. You've been a great girlfriend all these while.

With Love,
Bee

Happy 1 month Aniversary :)

2007-08-22T23:04:00.000-07:00

OH!! 1 monTh.... We have been attaCHing to each otheR for 1 month ald...

haha... So this is the story on how we celebRate our 1 month Aniversary:

Bee gave me one sexy Lingerie:)

I gave him one scooter belt :)

We went to JB, met brother Brad

We went for Pizza & Calamari at Pizza HUT

We weNt for Ratatoulle at City Square

We WEnt to pelangi for my slipper

& made Bee's new spec

We weNT for Tiramisu & Capucino cheese cake @ secRet Recipe

We wenT bacK CS for Starbuck (Latter...Caramel....)

We went to Merlin Tower and settled for the Genting trip

We wenT back Singapore

Wow!! a greaT day :) but unfortunately, the base of my boots cracked and the whole thing drop. I had to walk semi-bare-footed @ the CS until i get the slipper that i want @ Plaza Pelangi.

SoRRy for beinG so troublesomE :(

But i reallY had a greaT day with bEE, u too rite???

HEHe....

2007-08-21T00:05:00.000-07:00

Arh!! having BAD HAIR DAY for several days ald...

Bek ceK of my hair ald.... I miss the one in the photo sia...

shouLd i cut my hair?? ShoulD i not???

Sentosalsa :)

2007-08-19T19:20:00.000-07:00

Wow....Nice trip to sentosa.
This is my 1sT timE go sentosA for tanninG as well. Initially, i didn't waNt to swimminG in the sEa one... cos i goT sensitive Skin, later MY skin will itchy :(

But......... aFter perSuadEd by Bee, i decideD to play wif thEM lo.

Hm.... It was reallY a hot sunDay, bee's bacK, shoulder, faCE all kena buRned, & my face too.

Skin a bit itchy lo... aihs... Bo huaT toh....

It was really fun, we went to the sea (although the water is dirty), then i became lightER... haha, so i could ask Bee to carry me in the waTer, and we jumped when the waves came....

K la... is likE so kiddy, but it was fun... seriously fun...

Hm... rite afteR the swim, te weather changEd.

Thk God we left after thaT... went for my Tom Yam soup... Hm~ Yummy!!

theN bee senD me back to hostEL, & watchEd Hostel 2.

Actually we didn't finished the movie la, watched till half way, we got SOme otheR COmmiTMENT ma :) We decided to disuss abt our comin holiday.

AfteR thAT, we went to thE HOng KOng RestauranT And had our dinnER.

ARh!!!!! Tired tired tirED....

This morninG, nearly couldn'T get up le Lo..

AnywaY, i m in scH now...

So... Enjoy workinG Ya bEE :)

Disturbia-AH!!!!

2007-08-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

Oh my god.... Today, i didn't go to scH again... stay at homE watch my movie :)Disturbia!!! Damn nicE, tHrilling... haha, i screm still damn loud lo... scary...Initially was a bit bored, but it getting more thrilling when the story moves onhaha, i think is worth to watch... Then bee blamed me for not watching it wif him :( Sorry la bee, i watch it next time wif u lo k??

haha... Seems like long time never go to sch liao. just lazy lo, dun feel like going. Maybe bc this cls no feeling one, dun hv that kind of feeling which encourage me to go to sch, so go also no meaning la... furthermore, my grade will not change even if i go to sch :( Got time ar... go paktor lo, acc my Bee more.... he going NS soon :(

BTW, i signed up for my Basic theory test ald. It will be on 24th October, say long also not long la, coming soon one, time flies :) Scared ler... dun know can get the license or not.... aiyer, troublesome one lo...

Wish that i can geT my license.. So i can drivE Ferrari and Lamborgini to fetch Bee, hor???

hahaha...

Oh my oh My...

2007-08-13T20:06:00.000-07:00

Oh my... i just got my medical report 2day...

I need a booster for Hepetitis B...

Dun want dun want!!!! i can cry for just a tiny blood TEst, How am i supposE to withstanD anothEr boosteR??

Anyway... is 2nd sem thing, so ignore 1st :)

Ok la bee, i knoW is my faulT for the chendol inCident, u knoW... i neeD to acc my liL Brad, i neeD to waiT for someone's Cai Tao Kueh & Tau Kua u see..

Btw... i seriously touched By whaT had happeneD that day...

It was a raining day...Heavily RainiNg...

We weNt for Our chendol (again) aftER we had gonE to Dempsey Road.

No more Chendol...(again), i went therE at arounD 7 sth lo, why no more??? rEallY so gd busineSS??

Bee keep CAlling His Ex-colleagues and asK for thE Chendol... omg... it's ok, we can hV it nexT Time, theN finaLL he founD someonE who willinG to givE us the Chendol :)

Aiyer... The rAin stopped us from Proceeding to DempseY roaD to geT the MelTed chendol, so we hAd our dinneR there (not tomyam ban mian this time :)

AfteR HavinG the Chendol, we wenT TO the lighT housE pak toR again...

Har... bu this is was a very windy niTe...

THe winD touchEd my bodY cruelessly anD madE me shivEr in Bee'S arm.

haha...But thaT was reallY a GreaT nite :) hor?? bee....

Btw, i am a tutoR now :)
i've got my 1sT tutee, his namE is FElix, Felix Peng, PRimary 4..

Heard Tat is quitE naughtY la, cannoT concentraTe one, the daddY tolD me not to makE him crY, bc is his preciouS only Son... haha...

Nowadays, children are reallY pampereD, damn Good lifE lo :>

aNYway, nesT teusdaY Going to Meet him le, verY nervous... dun knoW i can CompletE my tAsk smoothly or not... :(

Ice Chendol No No

2007-08-13T10:05:00.000-07:00

Baby had a hard time having fate with Mr. Durian Ice Chendol. There is this quite popular dessert stall at Tangling Halt. Its popular because its the only dessert stall around (I suppose). But it sells one of the nicest durian ice chendol I've ever tried so far. Knowing how much Cindy loves durian, I brought her to the stall. But unfortunately, we've been there twice and both times, the stall was close. Thanks to *ahem ahem*. >=D Well, so anyway, last Sunday we tried our luck again but it was still closed because of its overwhelming business. But before we went down, I was there earlier with my EX-manager, (feels good to have an ex in front because I've finally left Wine Network for good) Mark, to get some of the ever popular durian ice chendol for the guys at work. So I tried my luck by calling Mark to check if there is anyone who is not having the chendol. And with sheer luck, one of the guys ain't interested in it. And so we got it. But it wasn't much of a satisfactory because there wasn't any red beans in it. Well honey, we'll go again one of these days to have it totally fresh. Make sure you're not late anymore! Hahaha. =D

Love,Bee

2007-08-06T20:50:00.000-07:00

Yoyo.. my deaRest brothER-Brad!!

Finally.... i got thiS photo when i wenT back to JB that day :)

Taken in the caR, nicE???

haha... i like my brothEr the mosT... he is so cute!!~

Well... Bee aR, u & eugEne, i reallY ntH to saY. But i seriouslY jeAlous lo.... How can boTH of u spenD morE than we dO??? omg...

ReallY scaRe 1 daY u wiLL faLL in luV wiTH him then Dump me one sidE :P

Whew!!!

haha...Mr. MasturBatE is Masturbating... ur pic so nicE... haha, ur shirT ar... Wear lo:P shoW uR ego infronT of ppl bah :>

Love Fight =)

2007-08-06T11:24:00.000-07:00

=) Darling ain't too happy about me hanging out so much with Eugene. *whispers(because she's jealous) Hahaha. Not that I don't want to spend time with Cindy. I would definitely love to spend more time with her than HIM! I feel so faggoty with him around. Face it Jin, we're guys after all. But nevertheless, I just got a long forgo belated present from Miss Tan. It'll be a challenge to wear it around in public. As shown in the picture, it isn't too offensive because of its cartoon works rather than wearing a t-shirt filled with 'F' word printed all over it. So I suppose its still alright to wear it in public.

Oh and honey, on the way to supper with Peter, Eugene called me to ask me where am I. He wanted to meet up with me. But I turn him down. HE'S GAY! =D

LifE....

2007-08-02T23:10:00.000-07:00

HearD that Eugene BrokE up wiF Miko ALd....
ALthough i dun knoW them weLL, buT i know thaT someThing happeneD in between thEm.
AccordinG to Bee, thE previouS problem is not solvEd yet.
If the problem cannoT solveD, THey will continuE quarreLing...
Aihs, y like tat?? I can tell thAT HE still lovEs her..
He even waiteD for her 2 hours... Then next daY still celebrAte her bd with her...
I hoPe that their relationsHip problem can be solVed so that he wonT occuPy my Bee everyDAy :P
hahaha~

SuccEss nOr SucceSS??

2007-08-01T19:31:00.000-07:00

Wow... seems long time nevER Blog ald...
I have been sick for so maNy daYs... FeveR, sorethroT, flU...
I thougHT i getTing beTTer then, bUt i realizED that i waS WRong!! My throaT inflammeD sia... theN i couldn't talk for days again...
wHen i going to RecovEr, my menstrual Cramp DrovE me intO the GraveyaRD again...
Omg... Y am i beinG so unforTunate?? whY??
THe 2nd priCe for the National A cappellacompetition means wht to me??
They quarreleD again.. quarrel oVER impromptu changinG.
I Was quitE shockeD when i head thaT Bev was told to "get out" if she doesnt want to sing....
WTF....
if i were BEv, i would take my belonginG and leave immediately...
How can u talk like thaT to ur membERs?? Wht if Bev leaVe, fanNy, leaVE, Ronny leaVE??
Who sIng for u theN??
Y so stupiD???

2007-07-26T22:18:00.000-07:00

Thnx for supporTing BEe.... Feel so glaD to see u thERe and Be my sidE when i waS tremblIng....

Haha... Yeah!!! After 1 yeaR plus, finallY i got thE 1st achievemeNt in A cappella...

I waS so depreSS and i intEnT to quiT RR afTEr this copetitivE bc it waS reallY dIShearTen to achiEve ntH theRE :(

Finally.... we'vE got In!! My teaRs rolleD in my eYes and i nearly Shed my teaR for the Joy of aChieVement....

I couldn't believE thaT we've goT in & now, we hv to compeTE against The all Guys' team (from SP).

They wERE greaT!! doubtLEss.... ThougH i knoW thE chanCE for us to Beat them successfullY is really tinY, but nevERmind, at leasT we wEre the 2nD amonG the 6 teams :)

Good Luck to me~~~ Good luck to FOS!!!!

Hope we have a nicE PerformancE infrOnt of the judgEs on mondaY Ya :)

=>

2007-07-26T12:18:00.000-07:00

Baby, thank you for forgiving me over that issue. I know its my fault and I can't stop blaming myself still. I know it has affected us somewhat. Deep down I know you're still fuming with anger. But I'll keep trying nevertheless. I'm sorry =( .

But the good news, congratulations to you and your team mates for getting into the finals. You guys were fabulous. Your hard work and effort paid off without waste. I was glad to be there but unfortunately I wasn't able to stay for the results and see the smile of your face when you guys got the announcement. You guys deserve it.

Oh, and a little something for you.... Your favorite smelly cat. =D

Love, Bee

WTF!!!

2007-07-23T19:39:00.000-07:00

WTF...
Wht kind of qs waS that???
Did i go for abortIon before??
So i look Like thaT kind of giRl who can anyhOw fuck??
DaMn it...
That qs seriouSly insulTed me deepLy...
My heaRt is not pain.. no Pain... yEt it is broKen!! jusT likE thE glaSS smashEd by THe stonE...
I wanted to forgivE him for being innocenT, but is thaT the excuse??
No one cAn accepT such Qs... no one!!!
EVen guyS also shockEd hearinG this QS...
i reGreteD... regrEted for tellinG the trutH in the 1sT placE...
I was The one who insulTed myself... i aM thE jokE of the worLd...
Failure...
Nth can help...

Haha...

2007-07-19T21:26:00.000-07:00

Oh dEAr.... i trueLy toucheD by wht u have written for Me in this Blog.

I alweZ want to Thnx for eveRythinG that u hv done to me althougH i alweZ saiD AnythinG.

I likE thE waY we CompromisEd to eaCH othER

and

i liKE the sinceRE thaT u've showEd to me whenevER we Had our converSation.

WalkiNG in the Rain from LavendER MRT station, aLL the WAy to BeacH roaD juZ to have one bowL of chili Noodle And StrolliNG all THe waY fROm BEacH rOAd to BugiS was thE MosT uniqUe waY of DatinG that i had Ever Had :)

HavinG emBracEd bY ur aRMs haS melteD my entirE heaRt and thaT's thE reaSon I showEd my lovE to u in returN.

ThnX for ur concERn & GivE in to me Most of the Time.

I reaLLy enjoyEd my moviE anD the mOmenT that we Had togeTHer altHough someonE was quitE confuseD by thE plOt of the movie... keke~

SorrY for DragginG this bloG for so lonG...

i hopE u likE wht i Have donE and the neO prinT as well...

TakE good caRe of youRself and maKe surE u resT enougH so tat u cAN recovER soon...

RemembER wht u saID, brinG me for my Tau Hue Only when u reCover kk??

WaiTing for it..

Thnks Fr Th Mmrs

2007-07-19T12:36:00.001-07:00

I totally enjoyed the time we had yesterday. Everything seem to happen too quickly. But I've truly cherished every single second we had together. It was just too incredible. I could even put it that its one of those happier days that you would wish for in your life. So now you know that I'm afraid of being tickled at the waist, and I know the fact that you love to sweep the streets of Singapore. But what matters most is the bonding we had, which were way more important. The thing I really love is that we could never run out of topics. Your wide smiling bubbly self just cracks my day. I wish I could just see your natural smile endlessly. And your gifts, they are strongly appreciated by me. Its not any special occasion, but still you made memorable stuff for me. It ain't big or expansive, but what matters most is the thought and sincerity that counts. You've been really nice hun, and I seriously appreciate it~ I know you're not feeling too well now, but just do me a favour and look after yourself please? Oh, and one more thing, I don't believe in fortune tellers =]

Love Joey

Oh No!!!!

2007-07-16T20:16:00.000-07:00

It's ok bEE....
Nth la, juZ want to Let u knoW how i think :)

Well... finally, i went homw on Sunday morNing.... very very Early in the morNing..

I didn't actually sleep before i went homE because i waTched the IndiaN moviE ... haha

Ok, I thinK thaT was the happieSt trip Home bc i enjoyed my Whole day in JB

We weNT to Kota Tinggi for Bah Kut teH

thEN we wenT to Aeon Tebrau City for Movie

Lao di dok stiLL angry wif me, bUt aftER the moviE, he ok ald...

i felt so sorry to him bc he kena chased out by the cinema conductor for being underage and watCh DIE HARD secretly :(

I scolded that guy and i willing to throW away my FAce juz bc one movIe

Damn... but he really piSSed me off la... sincE when JB's cinema become so Strict???

AnywaY, after the moviE, i went homE and we get readY for the dinneR :)

HAha.. seriously long Time never go for such good dinner ald (i mean dinE in @ gRAND StrAIT vIEW ). wE HAD sHARK fin, cold platE, Shou mian and etc.

Although i dieT, i still eat lo, just eat very very sLow....

Hm... i can tell thaT my parentS heart Pain to see me suffer Like tAt lo...

Early in the morning theN i diarrhea ald, then go home le keep feeLing nausea and had car sick...

I couldn't eaT much which i only took half bowl of rice and soup for my Kota Tinggi breakfasT trip...

At thE Same time, i miSS my bEE so much..

haha~ BEE ar... can't waiT to see u tmr sia...

Hope u reallY willing to Go for HarRy poTTer wif me :)

Btw, i've made stH & bought sth for u....

Let's see tmr....

Sorry~

2007-07-13T11:08:00.001-07:00

I just want to tell you how terribly sorry I am for saying things that I'm not suppose to say. I will not make the same mistake again. I promise. You're being missed.

Hours Minutes & Seconds

2007-07-12T09:43:00.000-07:00

Time is the healer for all wounds. Its time for you to regain your lack of self esteem, your broken heart and your own faith. Everything is worth waiting for. Its you that people love at the end of the day. There are still many people whom you can fall back on. And thats how life goes on. Fulfill it.

2007-07-09T21:17:00.000-07:00

Oh my....my dieT plan started yesterdaY

it waS a tough day neh!

i dRank my AnlenE milk in the morning.... noon really couldn't tahan liao bc i got lab lesson.

so i went for my lunch in the canteen since canteen no ppl ma

then after sch, i had another cup of milk again...
when i went back hostel, i hungry again.. omg... how ler? so i had a cup of almond tea

tat's all... damn hungry, inevitable, i got gastric pain and headache ...

cannot study lo, so i went to bed quite early :(

Arh...

Miserable :(

2007-07-08T20:53:00.000-07:00

Well, bEE camE and pick ME up fOr dinneR after His worK

hAha.. actuallY the main PurposE fOr this meeting Is thaT bEE wanted to paSS me the Durian Puff.

omg!! the puff was really nice!!!! thnX beE for sharinG it wiF me :)

we wEnt to CuasewaY pT, thN sAW sHu Jing & edWarD theRE.... theY wanteD to watcH moviE

ok... theY mock at mE la.... theN i mocK at theM also..

Although it waS jus a movIe, i was quitE shocKto sEE them tOgetheR lo...

no wondER sHu jIng nevER kacau Kacau me la... bc she's DaTing someone Else ma ~

Haha.. okok, carry on...

thEn we WEnt tO fooDcOurt 4 dinneR lo...

i thought the Swensen's Voucher still can use o, so i we weNT to Swensen for my favorite Ice CReam to celebratE my lasT daY to "eat" bc i start dietinG ...so sad...

After tAt, i did stH stupiD our of suddeN la... haha, i thinK bEE terkeJut alsO..

WEll... sorRy abt thaT, bee, u shuLd know wht i am refering to rite??

theN we cHat in the phoNe at arnd 12am..

Bee saiD his pareNts ask him to movE out wiTH his grandParentS bc the housE is too croWded somemore his brothER is getting marry soon...

Bee said he still consideRing la... i will not objecT he do so but a bit worry abt him la

thIs mummy's boy, staY outsidE dun know wht will Happen sia :(

bUt he's going to NS ma, shoulD be no problem la, i gueSS he will geT homesicK :P

Bee, miS u so mucH. Try to geT resT ok??

u know??

2007-07-04T23:34:00.000-07:00

WEll... me & bEE spent our whole weDnesday togethER.

we weNt for moviE "Transformers" and weNt to my hostel foR cheesE & cream PastA...

i waS so clumsY wheREby i didnt even know hOW to use the caN openeR...

haha...

theN we watcHed movie in the hostEL lo. after the moviE, botH of us very tireD le la.. so we jusT onlinE "38" a while, and tAlk cocK a whilE...

Hm... bEe asked me whethER i am reaDy or not... theN i asked him 1 queStion whiCh i wanT him to thinK y i askeD it... "Do you like me?" "yeS, i do, for surE"

nexT question

"Do you love me??" "It is too earlY to say..."

ya!!! exactly!! i wanT to attach TO some1 i LOVE but not Like!!

i admit that i like lof of ppl bC i havE the rigHT to do so...

However, Who is the onE i lovE?? Do i lovE him?? I stiLL dun knoW... my answeR is same wIF him...

So?? whY attacH to eacH otheR so soon??

i need Time.....

LAst nitE...

2007-07-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

LAst nite, Bee told me thAt his frienD(thiS materialistic girl)'s mum inviteD him to heR housE for dinner...

i waS so agitating and i said "Cannot!! wht the hell is she doinG!!!"

my words were so sharP, and bEE thoughT that i was angRY wiTh this...

yaLA... i admit THat i was a bit pissed by this PERmissIon thinGy bc i think that this kinD of thinG no need ask me, if u want to go then u go lo....

However, i didn't blame Bee bc i would do the same thing if i were him. I will ask for permission if really happen to be some guy invite me to his house bc the mum likes me. I don't know la... maybe bee told me that he used to like this girl be4, somemore the mum likes him... so kind of worry also...

he's rite la... i dun trust him, i have no confidence in myself also...

MY wholE personality haS been changEd sincE kenA cheaTEd by the Ex.

Bee....

Thnx for understaNding my sitUation and thnx for ur patience :)

Miz u so much :P see u tmr for thE movie ya ~

n_n

Bad dreaM!!!!!

2007-07-01T19:29:00.000-07:00

Oh... i had a reaLLY baD dreaM Laz nite....

I dreamT tat my daD killeD me wiTh a gUn... a GUN u know??

he ShooooooT my heaD... theN i unconciouS for a wHilE....

theN i conciouS aGain.... ntH happen aftER kena shoooooT in the head!! wierD rite???

i dreaMt thaT i sms bEE and tolD him abT this... yET his buddY replieD me and told me tAT Bee is noT frEE for me aT taT momenT....hE's avoindINg me...

omg........ i neaRly crY in my dreaM...

wHy??? wht kind of dreAm is taT????

i am so tirEd because of haviNg thiS kind of drEam...

aiH...

HavinG talkeD to Daniel thaT nitE, i fEEl quitE confusEd of my own felinG...

I alD wIllinG to do anythiNg foR bEE, and treAT him as my bF, yeT i still dun waNT to admiT thAT i ald attacHEd :(

i Made Bee waiT for me.... evEn i also dun knoW how lonG he haS to waiT..

Maybe by the Time i made up my decision, he Ald fall in Luv wiF someoNe else...

i knoW it's my probLem, i feeL so sorrY abT it...

Let me thInk again...

What do I want???

2007-06-29T00:34:00.000-07:00

cOnfuseD+ confuseD + ConfuseD = ConfuseD!!!!!
WhaT do i waNT?? i really don't know...

I still can'T maKe up my minD...
I admiT that i am quitE flirT sometimes... and i don't even knoW whethEr i liKe that person or not...

This timE, i couLd not make up mY minD becaUse i caN't forgeT whaT i havE donE...

I can'T forgeT hOw diD i hurT myselF in the previos relationshIp.
That waS thE biggESt failurE that i have to faCe for thE resT of my life...
i knoW my frenZ cou'dn'T understnad whY am i so depress... because You are not Me!!

Joey's Birthday

2007-06-25T20:51:00.000-07:00

DUMB PIG!!!
That's the 1sT thinG i saw When i pluG in my external HardIsk...

iT waS Bee's 20 years old BirthDAy yesTerday =)
Actually we celebrateD it on sunday alrd becauSe i kneW his frenz wiLL celeBrate for hIm on mondaY one ma :P yET... Bee sms daTe me for dinnEr wIth EugeNe theM, so i Juz meT him at YCH mrT at 8pm lo:)
We haD ouR dinneR at Serangoon... haha...
k la... actuallY me & bEE hold hand sincE sunday ald... is juZ thaT, our relaTionship seemS uncleAR till noW
May asked me whethER i paktor wiTH joeY... haha, of coursE i say no LA... how i knoW May so KaypoR rite??? Yet bee saiD he woulD say YES if she ask cos she tOO kaYpor ald, haha.... funny :D
WEll... lasT nitE i askED him abOut thiS maTTer la, then bEE said" if ppl ask, just say we PaktoR lo..." whT does That mean oo?? naturallY attacHed??? Hm... i quitE stubborn one la.. i wonT admit de la... haha

hM... really lonG time nevER bloG ald... sincE i brokE up witH thaT heartLEss guy...
I dun knoW.... bc he hurtEd me so deeP, i haTe him so mucH & i feeL thaT i dun trusT guys so much now... althougH i alwez saY i want find bF la, buT i know thAT i wont accepT guys easilY... SometimeS feEling really comE ald, my stubborn peRsonalitY sTopped me from gOinG furthER anymorE... dUn knoe la... jusT waNT to be thE passivE :)