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Thursday, January 08, 2009

It has been really long time since i last blog. Usually i would feel like blogging when i am upset and angry. But this time, i would really say that i feel lucky and happily leading my life with him now. Although we are not attached to each other yet, but maybe this is not an important issue? He hasn't confessed to be properly yet, i mind... sometimes i really tried to prompt and hint him, but maybe he thought it was just the right time and right location...
Anyway, his family know that i am his gf... and i regard him as my bf as well infront of everyone. Just that the fact is that we DO NOT HAVE ANY ANIVERSARY yet :(
The above piglet was a gift from him... i think was for christmas... haha... It is rather big... haha... my another 'son' :)
We had our 1st trip together to KL on 25th Dec 2008. On the way, we went to Melacca for the Round Round chicken Rice and spent half a day at melacc. Then We spent 3 days at KL and had lots of fun and shopping there. He is very nice... He didn't really shop but merely follow me and carry whatever i've bought :) He paid for whatever i wanted to eat and drink and even accomodation and transportation. On the 2nd day, We went to Sunway Pyramid and met with his elder sis, her bf and Munchy- my high school classmate. Patrick and Yi hao, the driver who fetch us to KL were there as well. We went for ice skating and Korean Cuisine. Omg!!! tat was very fun!! I merely fell down once and i got to know 3 young little girls as my Shi Fu :) Eventually, i can do ice skating lo~~~~

Last nite, he suddenly walk up to me with this box while i was studying for my Clinical Chem UT. I didn't know what it is and i didn't know it's for me until he open it up and....

Wow!! It's a white gold necklace... It is actually 2 pendant... The outer Love shape and the diamond love shape can be separated. There is a name for this necklace... "THE 7 WONDERS..." U know Why it is named this way??? Cos the seperated pendant can be hung on the chain in 7 different ways. The diamond love shape has two faces, plus the fact that 2 loves can be rearranged, thus i can change it in whatever way i like... For a person who likes surprise and get bored for something after a while, this is really a good present :) Thnx HWS...

I asked him why give me a necklace out of the blue, he said " I don't have to give u present only when it's some kind of celebration rite? And i will give u present whenever i like..."

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Thursday, November 20, 2008

Oh deAR.... This is the rose given by Garnett yesterday. I was waiting 4 him aT Toa Payoh afteR my Treatment. Waited for quite long... tot would not meet ald, yet he took a caB down from West Coast Plaza to meet me. Saw him holding papeR bag in his hand (which he doesn't usually carry anything), i was puzzled what could it be? He passed it to me, and said sorry for letting me wait for him for so long.... This roses were inside. haha... So sweet..... Was very happy la :) Although we are noT togethEr yet, he givE me floWers without any reason, or maybe just because he was late. Anyway.. i am still happy :)

Long time didnt blog ald. Cause i was busy in finding new place to stay. Arh... it's just troublesome... Even agent can't give me the room thAt i want... Tat's very sad... until now, i have less than 1 week left to get a new room for myself. So irritating... I worry about where to stay more than my FYP presentation which fall on the coming wednesday. Oh no... It's just baD days all these while.... Why can't things get better asap??? I am suffering now.... Just give me a nice room pls................................

Nah!!! The news of me getting a new bf had been spreading ever since the day my parents came in and helped me send my stuffs back. haha... Kena caught holding hand secretely behind by Brad, my one and only brother, and news started spreading.... haha.. pai seh sia~~

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Monday, November 03, 2008

After a few weeks of getting along... finally cannot tahan him ald....
I would admit that he is a sweet guy, and he loves me...
However... maybe cos i dun really love him yet, thus sometimes cant really tahan what he does...
Hm... Last nite, we were talking in the phone and suddenly, he just tok something else, cos he was talking to his roommate. And i was holding the phone, waiting for him to finish his conversation with Patrick, his roommate. Same situation happened twice throughout the conversation, and i told him "why don't u talk to ur roommate 1st, finish ald then call me?" and he said ok.
So i waited for his phone call and lying on the bed. 1o mins ltr, he called me. WE continued talking, and i was telling him that i dun like guys hang up phone call before i do. And i was kiddingly telling him that "come, we compete who hang up the phone faster", and i said 3-2-1, he hung it up immediately. SHIT..... I was really pissed.... Go and die... really... All these while, he had been saying bye bye to me when i was talking to him in the phone. He didnt end our conversation nicely nvm, still hang up my call?? I was holding the phone, got hung, ok, sleep then. He sms me ltr on, said that he hung up 1st, haha, gd nite and love me.
Walao..... Why so stupid one.... So i sms him, tell him tat i not gonig to meet him today ald.
So he sms asked me why, i didnt reply, he called me and i rejected his phone call.
eventually, i told him off in the phone when he called me again.
He said sorry and promise me same thing wont happen again....
Hm.... could tell that he was shock... But no choice, who ask him make me angry??

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Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Recently, i've been meeting up with one of my Foon Yew's senior. His name is Garnett. Usually i call him Xiong gor gor, cos his sister was my sec classmate. Anyway, how i got to knoe him wasn't through his sis, but my friends... haha... small world :) He is 4 years older than me (that means he is now 23 yr old). Hm... Looking wise... Quite alrite... Twice his "Class Grass" during high school time. He was studying in MMU, cyber jaya. Last month, he came to work in singapore. His company doing some business with RP, that's y he tried to find me recently.
Anyway... I went out with him on Sunday. We met up at Ochard (3 of us, another guy is his roommate) and went for dinner together as Wisma, of course, he paid for my meal. Then we went to Cineleisure's K BOX and sing K. haha.. Interesting... he can sing!! That's what i dun noe.. although can't really sing well :(
Tuesday, we met up again. That nitem my FYP screwed up and i went home at 5.30pm. So boring rite?? So asked him whether want to have dinner. He replied immediately and agreed to come Woodlands and have dinner with me :) And so, he took bus and train all the way here although he staying at Aljunied. After finished the dinner, he send me home and we had a chit chat at void deck... And he missed his train... Oh no... my fault...
Yesterday, he came to my school to work, according to him, troubleshooting something. We didn't really have enough time to chit chat. He treat me bubble tea and went for work. I went back a while then rushed out to meet up with Joey. Actually we were suppose to watch movie, cos he promised me to bring me for movie. However, joey was tired because of the guard duty plus the fact that there weren't nice show to watch so we didn't watch. After 1.5hour, Garnett finished his work and enquired me about the school taxi stand. He invited me for a movie... Hm... Should i go??? Yala... i went la. So he came Junction 8 and find me. And so Joey went home, i went AMK with him for a movie. haha... His roommate rushed to AMK for the movie too, but due to technical error, he wasnt able to sit with us :( We watched CONNECTED. Actully i watched that show before, but was in English version. Very nice.. Chinese version contains bit of Exagerating and humour.. but was nice too!!! Obviously, Garnett got bit feeling towards me... But he didnt express it directly...I've tok to him, he said he wants to find one to be with him forever... can tell tAt he still unsure abT his feeling... nvm...maybe he jusT lonely??

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This is NUSS's new uniform.. Not mine... but Kepo.... want to try :) Nice?

This is the full body PicturE that i've sent to JAL... Hm... Taken by Garnett :)

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Saturday, October 11, 2008

It has been one week that he did not want to pick up the phone nor seE me.
I have been crying for so long... Sometimes can cope ip, sumtimes cannot... I also dunno why, juZ miss him. Deep in my heArt i noE tat it's Better for Us to separaTe cos we canT communicaTe. What he wantS id whaT i dun wanT and whaT i want is noT what he Is looking for...
Juz Like whaT ronny said, i gaVe ouT all my cards ald... Game over, nth to plaY. It's truE...in my heaRt i really reaLLY miss him and want to see him. But i did not contaCt him for many daYs ever sincE i IM him in msn and told him my feeling. Sometimes, i juz suddenly woke up & feel like calling him and greet him a good morning, but i Noe if i were to do this, he would be unhapPy cos i spoil his whole daY, and i would not be happy cos he unhaPPy... So i didnt do So.
After so lonG, finally he willinG to removE the "there is no turning back" from his msn. It doesn't Mean thaT he is no longer angry anymore. He gaVe up, i suppose... juz lyk wHat my frens sAid, if he love me, he would not do all thosE things to me, he would not treaT me like tat.
Ya... so whaT if he were to let me contaCt him, what can i do?? His parents will not accept me anymore, he will not accept me anymore, then why should i hurt myself? Since he can let go, i should let go as well!! There is no poinT for me holdIng it tightLY. Juz Vain....
What people say is true... as long as i am single, there are guys coming to me. My life is noT tat bad thougH... I received a call from Tiger Airways, they shortlisted me and ask me to go for interview on MondaY... Timing juz Nice, i got no school... I m going to give my Best Shoot and i will success!! At the mean time, i dun noe when this spanish miX Burmese guy who is tAking Avionic Engineering CoursE in my sch startEd to add me in FACEBOOK and now toking to me in msn all time. He asked for my numbER and daTe me out for dinner. Of courSe, i didnt go.
Today, i meet with one of my Angmo net friend who come from South Africa. He's a cool guy... a softwaRe engineeR who is Brave to be here alone and we tok about lots of things... interesting stuffs... education, careER, vodafone (we were complaining at M1 lousy broadband), travelling and eTc... Sumthing that amazEd me was, there was this gal who tRy to sell perfume to us. Both of us were listening to hER introduction and etc, and suddenly, this guy named DEAN, said "Wo Bu Yao, Xie Xie Ni" OMG!!! He can speak chinese... So cool rite?? he's been learNing chinese for 4 months... That's really amazing...
I try to occupy my time with lots of other stuff. Maybe like What others said, After so long of trying, it's proven that me and joey juz don't work. I cant deny it... now i accept it. What i am looking forward now is to meet with more people, enlighten my life and hope i can fulfill my dream and fly around the world soon...

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Thursday, October 09, 2008

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Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Whenever i see other people hugged by their bf, or they waiting for each other to go home, I really very envy them....
I wonder how my friends can be together with thier beloved for so long, why Not me??
I was very sad, I am very, but i hope i won't be sad anymore....
Last night, i managed to IM joey and tok to him a bit.
His attitude was harsh, obviously, he angry with me and hate me a lot.
I didnt want to quarrel, but to clear my doubts.
He blamed me for making scene in the public, he blame me for make him lose face in front of the public, he blame me for being "agitated" over the topic that we discussed, he hate me for the bruises and scratches that he has on his arm, he said i pushed him to his limit and so he pushed me down.
I swear!!! I HATE MAKING SCENE IN THE PUBLIC... and i know u hate it! that's why i wanted to tok to him somewhere else... but i dun know why he refused to and just leave me alone.
Finally, i noe why... it was because the topic and the conversation that we had earlier on.
I have nothing to say. I didnt want to argue about that topic too... i made myself clear that i dun want that issue to affect our relationship... End up he willing to leave me aside becos of tat... leave me without giving explanation.... Ok.... I got nth to say...
I have been crying ever since that incident happened. Dunno why, i just cried for a while after i explain things to him through MSN (although he didnt reply).
Maybe my friends were right. If he loves me, he would not leave me alone and buy his lunch. HE DOESN'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE, CINDY!!! ya.... why must i keep crying over this??? Algae is rite... my parents love me even more! If something happen to me, who will cry for me??? Joey??? NO!!! It's my parent, my beloved brother, my family, my friends... It is because they love me... Why must i hurting myself??? I was crying badly when algae and miki told me so... Just that moment, my dad called me... OH no.... I dun want to let him hear it. So i wiped away my tears and picked up the phone. He asked me why my voice changes? I said i have flu... "It must be a bad flu which changed your voice become like that!!" NO no no.... normal flu... Then i noe wht algae means....
SAying so... my appetide cut down a lot.. Merely one/half a meal per day... It's juz hard... can't eat... even i can't eat i aslo have diarrhea... i dun dare to tell all these things to my parents... they try so hard to send me here to study, and i torture myself into this state... I have no face to see them....

Who like to make a scene in the public?
Who like to make her beloved cry?
Who like to see her beloved sad?
Who like to walk away from her beloved?
Who like to leave her beloved one side and buy her own lunch?
Who like to shout at her beloved?
Who like to lay her fingers on the beloved?
Who like to see her beloved injured?
Who like to torture herself?
Who like to beg for forgiveness?
Who like to cry all the time?
Who want to give up her beloved?

No ONe.... I wish i could be the lovely girlfriend who always smile and hold her boyfriend's arm dun want to let go. I wish i could be the sweet girlfriend who talks nicely no matter in what situation and never raise her voice. I wish i could be the smart girlfriend who can sweetalk to her boyfriend and bring him happiness. I wish i could be the calm and cool girlfriend who can give her bf a kiss even he was piss and going to leave her alone. I wish i could be the best gf in the world who deeply loved by her bf...
What i can do now is wait... since joey thinks is my fault, juz like what he said "there is no turning back". I wish i could tolerate 2 more weeks and tok to him nicely. I hope his mind set would changed by then....

I love my piglets....

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