hahaha!!! I had greaT weekend man!!!Hm... How say leh? Saturday morning i work in e Library. Immediately after work, i went to Bee's placE and we relax there. Watching Cloverfield... haha... tht show so dizzy man!! watch will fall alseep le lo... bc the previous nite work till veh late ma. But bee nevER blame me, he leT me sleep instead, haha, with my chou chou =)Then eveNing, we went to Bishan Junction8 to buy Wida's birthdaY present. She is a nice gal, who likes Pink colour. The parkt was held at Botanic Garden, sweet place =D End up me & Bee were the outcast one cos both of us wore black, as shown in the pic abovE. We didn't staY for long, cos we want to caTch a movie at Plaza Sing. However, omg... no parking, super terrible... thus we went back to Dempsy Road, e placE which we went to before we pak tor. Wah!! So much changes there... We went to the Ben's & Jerry's to take look. So much memories....THen, we went home le lo...Sunday :)Morningm i gave tuition to Felix. Then went straight to YCK meet bee. WE went town. WOW!!! finally.... i can watch IRON MAN!!! It's a nice show, Tony, keep cars like toy cars. OMG... this is the lifE i want to leaD in future. kekez...he is brilliant!! the iron man is cool :PAfter the movie, we walked to Ochard. Hm... shopping there, boughT a pair of jeans and necklace there, to compensate e one that i've lost. Well... The feeling was like when we initially pak tor tht time. Very sweet...E chocolatE also veh sweet :)hehe...Can't wait for Next week.... finsih my UT and go KL Lo~~
writtern at; 9:17 PM;
Arh... Feel so relief now.... After calling joey to clarify things, i feel much better. I asked jojo whether i can tag along for the Batam trip, he said up to me. A bit upset la... bc i wasn't invited ma... But after a while, the moment i finally got appetite to eat, i recieved jojo's msg "i'm serious. You can come along. If you can come along better. Shopping there heard cheap. Then you can go shop for all you like. Got full body spa some more."OMg.... so touch....feel much much better now. Although i still worry about his mum tat issue, but i really feel much better cos jojo accepted me. He let me go with him. i feel so happy :) i can temporary forget abt all the other things, but i want is tt jojo dun feel pressurized anymore. Cos i really want to prove that i change. Really....Aihs... 2day whole day didn't do aything again... feel so depressed and pale. No appetite. Thnk God that i clarify things out and i gain back some of e energy.Thnx for giving me chance JOJO....Hope to see u soon. Feel like hugginG u close to me :)
writtern at; 10:42 PM;
Finally.... Finally i know what's happening recently and wht's happened to Joey. Why did he change so sudden? Finally i know now...I got no feeling... Really no feeling ald.... because finally i know the truth. & tat's the thing i want to heaR. hahaha... all these while i only give stress to joey, and i myself makes everyone dun like me. Nth to do with Joey... i m too sensitivE. hahaha... I made joey pressurized by his mum, and i didn't even know that... omg... how dump am i?? Juz because his mum said i over sensitive then he feel stress?? Joey, r u still hiding sth from me?Juz now Joey sms me, said he will be going to Batam with his friends during the Vesak day Holiday. Air Force friends rite??? hahaha.... THen i said ok lo. Besides ok, what can i say?? I was crying when i saw His msg.... my tears rolled down. Get away trip??? i tot get away will bring me along... like tat time what we planned, go penang, melacca??? Felt like kena dumped ald.... i still thick skin and asked "me leh?", and i got the answer that i didn't want to hear the most "I dun know". Hahaha.... Feel like saying NO. But i cant.... because i promise i will follow whatever decision He made, i will respect him. I will let him do whatever he want. Even if i unhappy with it, i will not say it out, i will not express it. This is what i promised, can't break the promise anymore. I am going to lose him.... going to lose him... i understand, joey needs time. He wants to relax, get away from me, because i only make him suffer. I understand.... No feeling... no feeling... Does this relationship still valid?Hai you yi yi ma? I asked myself. Everything seems like wo yi xiang qing yuan de. Keep begging for forgiveness. hahaha... Do we still have chancE to watcH IRON MAN together?
writtern at; 5:56 PM;
It has been a whole morning, bee never sms me. I worry about him. I scare he angry with me. Thus i send mms, sms to him. Nobody reply me. Eventually i called him. My phone call was rejected. A msg arived from Bee, he sad he was sleeping, he was very tired. OMg.... it's my fault.... Bee said he was late this morning, he forgot to do his Duty, he skippeD his lunch juZ to take a nap and i still called him and disturbed him. Omg.... i feel so sorry... really really sorrY. I didn't knoW i've affected his daily life. I didn't know. Now even no msg from bee for the whole morning, i feel uneasy.... really uneasy...I have no mood to do anything... nothing... The classroom is super duple cool, as cool as my heart. I miss bee so much...I dun wanT these rubbish anymore... i dun want. I miss those life before & when we just paktor, so sweet... so romantic... I miss the feelinG of hugginG & Holding hand with bee. Nobody else... dun know why... jusT love him so much...Bee ar... Please forgivE me. I didn't mean to affect your life. I myself feel miserable.Wating for your phone call and sms.Love,Cindy
writtern at; 10:55 PM;
To Dearest Joey,
Jojo, i really love u a lot.... Love to the extent whereBy i will lost controL and dont know what i am doing or even do whatever you want. All these thingS thaT are happening i won't deny thaT wasn't my fault. I know i am too sensitive over some issue and u dun like my behaviour. I've been trying to change all these while. I controlled myself not to shout at u. I talked to u nicely. But eventually u shouted at me 1st and i lost my control. I am sorry for everything. Sorry for making you suffer. I can't take these kind of things anymore. U said you are confused. Yes, i am the one who make u confuse again... hahaha....seriously, i feel lost as well. I think i am not doing the wrong things because i only wanted to talk things out, but i didn't expect u would have such big reaction. I never want to break up with you because i really love u a lot a lot. I know what to do now. Please don't angry anymore. I do whatever you say for the rest of my life.
Love,
Cindy
writtern at; 6:00 PM;
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