Yesterday was supposed to be a very happy day. 12pm, i called joey and we had a deal to go AMK for lunch and have a walk there. And so, i went shower happily and waited for him to fetch me at my plaCe. I Had many many Things to tell him and he also had something to tell me. He actually forgave me and he wanted to give me a chance to patch togeTher. Both of us were Happy though... but dun noe why, afTer started to topic which had troubling him for a couple of days with me, he wasn't happy with my explanation and my point of view. Finally, we reached AMK and found a lot there. I know he dun like us to quarrel in the public, so i wanted to settle it and draw a conclusion for that topic. Yet he was unhappy and he got off the car. I had no choice, so i got off the car too!I crossed the road, and waited for him. Who knows, after he cross the road, the walk to the other side and purposely avoid me. He continued walking and left me alone at the carpark. I was crying.... an old man came to me. He said, "Gal, why are you crying here?? Dun cry, Come, go to my car and cry if you want, Come, come with me..." OMg... I was so scare, yet joey was no longer in my sight. I went to the market and sit in front of the Mee stall which he likes the most, but he never come. So i called him. He Sounds piss, he ask me to do whatever i want to do and dun pester him anymore... and he was in the market too!! So i went around and i found him queueing in front of another mee stall and buying food. I was really piss... so i ran to him, and hit him on his arm and ask him to go with me so we can have a talk some other place. He refused to... he asked me not to make a scene in the public. And i said yes, i dun want to make a scene in the public so please come with me! How can he just throw me at the carpark yet he himself come and buy lunch??? What was he thinking?? We didnt quarrel!!He went off very fast after he got his food. So i followed him and keep pulling his arm. He kept pushing me away, ask me not to follow him. finally we came to edge of the market which was quiet and i slapped him twice. I was really angry... I angry because i dun know why he just throw me alone at the car park and he buy lunch himself. I angry why he dun want to tok to me and juz say whatever thing i do is ald useless... Why???? Why i drag him to the other side juz for a tok also wrong?? Why???? He said before, i can shout and throw my temper, but not in the public. I also know he hates it a lot so i pull him to the other side, but he didnt even give me a chance to tok to him.... Why?????Of course he was very angry, i kept pulling him but he juz go like that. I chased behind him, and when we reached the carpark, i finally got his arm, but he pushed me very hard that i fall on the road. I knocked my head very hard and my arm. For that moment i was ald lying in the middle of the road of the carpark, i thought i was going to faint, but i didn't. I thought he would turn bck and look at me but no..... he never,,,, He just drove off....Everyone in the carpark stunned.... he threw me alone at the carpark, didnt even held me up when i fall on my head... My heart was very pain.... No one could help me.... THe public helped me to rest at the side. People standing around me, i could do nth except for crying... i tried to call his house and his mother's hp, but all engaged. i still borrowed a passerby's phone, couldnt reach...... So i called eugene, but he said he was bz, not convenient.... So i ask one othe public to send me o his place. Lucky, one of the women offer to send me.... Thnx to the lady.... I fianlly reached his place. He wasn't at home. I told the whole story to his mum, and she help me to put ice pack to the swelling can go off a bit. I know it was my fault, the moment i slapped him i know he will hate me forever... But i jus dun get it why he get so piss even when i compromise with him???He refused to go home... i have no choice but go home. His sister acc me for few hours... we had a talk... i felt much better, but in my hear i feel guilty and regret... But there is nothnig i can do. He say we are gone... impossible anymore... he dun want to see me, dun want to tok 2 me...I thought i would be alrite.... But i feel giddy when i sleep. I was flippng on my bed for the whole nite because i was reallyvery giddy... i dun know whether it caused by my injury on my head... very xin ku....This morning i woke up, i thought nth will happen. But i started crying again.... I feel very very bad... So i slapped my face 10 times. It was painful.. but it was not as pain as what joey got yesterday.I never contact him anymore... i know he wun want to see me or listen to me. I can do nth except for crying and waintg.... I dun want us to end.... I very scare that he would tell me not e even be his friend and stop looking for him... I really very scare....I still got lots of thing and story havent tell him. I havent finished what i wanted to tell him ytd....Joey, if u can see this, i want to say sorry to you. Please dun hate me....The story that i wanted to tell u but no chance was that, May gave birth to her baby boy ald... 2 3 days ago.... May God bless the child....
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